here we go again!

i got a job! a real life grown up monday thru thrusday job! ive been proud of myself before but have never felt like this... i took a huge risk last year dropping all my nic classes, disappointing the parents with me not getting a real life college diploma, taking out a huge student loan and earning my dental assistant certificate. when i called mike after getting the call i cant even explain the excitment i heard in his voice. he was so proud of me. its a great feeling...

so now i'm a full time certified dental assistant married to a powerlineman working on his apprenticeship. we're both feeling very solid right now. we are in the slow process of finding our first home. we're thinking with the market the way it is and with as much as mike makes we may be able to afford our "family" house. one that we can raise our babies in and not move in 5 years.

its all falling into place... our life is slowly turning into the boring married life we've been dreaming of :)

heres to 2011!

wow its already a new year??? my break flew by! mike leaves to head back to montana tomorrow morning. we had a better second half of our break to say the least.... this marriage thing is a hard learning curve and when you're starting off with distance apart its just a natural craziness... but i love him and wouldn't change any decisions weve made. thank goodness we have that.

we spend new years the only we know how to: good friends and cold beer. it was a blast. one of my very best friends got engaged new years eve... i knew it was coming but she was in the dark about it the whole time. i'm so excited for them. they truely belong together. plus i'm excited not to be the only married one around, yes they love to tease me about being an old married hag. ha i love my friends. they will be getting married in september. brandy, rob and i are going to a bridal fair next weekend to check things out and get the planning along... its so weird to be a maid of honor and not planning it! i have to say i love it. this is the one thing i wish all my friends- to find someone to spend their life with!

i'm so excited for the new year though... its all pretty stress free from what we can see... no wedding, no school (i'm done wednesday! eeee!) mike will be staying in one spot (well pretty close) and thats that. well i suppose buying a house and hopefully starting our family this fall could be potentially stressful but i think we're both too excited for that to let the stress bog us down... i guess ask me again in 6 months ha.

i guess i'll end with my new years resolutions:
1. stop texting and driving
2. pay my loan off
3. be the best friend i can be. with that said--- i'm done wasting time on friends who don't try back.

p.s. only a year and half until mike is done with his apprenticeship... YEEEHAWWW! :)

christmas break thus far.

i figured i have a free moment that hasn't been over taken by people in and out of the house and the million things that have to get done while mike's home....

the break is has been great. christmas was wonderful we stayed at my parents and got treated like ten year olds :) the next day we were suppose to go to st maries to see mikes mom but the roads weren't gonna let us.... we got into our first accident. it was soooo scary! mike was driving super slow but it still slide us around and smack right into the cement rails. the damage for what happpened is amazing. just the front bumper in torn up but that we can live with. we were both VERY shaken up, unharmed except for my knee hitting the door. its just swollen and bruised but i'll take it.

so today is filled with insurance calls and estimates. yay. the one shitty thing about mike being home for longer than a weekend we actually start to feel like a real husband and wife so we decide to bring up issues like whats going to happen and of course it turns into a huge fight we i seriously want to smack him across the face and of course he thinks he's just going to storm out of here. we could fight on repeat i swear! i love him to death and wouldn't change anything but i think someone is using us for their amusement because we can't fix anything. lol its just dumb... than we try to talk it out sleep on it and everythings fine.... i'm not sure its the healthiest way but for now we both always say its not going to help anything to fight about the future.

sometimes i just really hate being a linewife and the damn unknown.

.Hope.

its been an exhausting weekend.

mom and i headed to tri cities on friday to see the family and be there to support my grandma who was putting on an advent breakfast saturday morning at her church. i didn't know until we got there but she was one of the key speakers. she would be speakin on hope. some of you have met my family and the one thing i always hear is wow your family treats any and everyone like they are your own blood and have known me for years. its true. my grandparents have adopted many more granddaughters and sons than you can imagine. i guess the reason i'm adding this little back ground in my blog is to show where i get my strength from... the woman in my family are the heart and soul. each of them has taught me more and more throughout their experiences and stories. i won't go into their stories because just that their not mine to share. anyways so i've mentioned 2 years ago we lost Luke... to back up a little before that my grandparents after 48 years divorced. it was terrible. we were all so lost. they were apart for 2ish years than decided to remarry and i know its a little crazy but the wedding was amazing. every. single. person. was there. my grandparents have 7 kids. 28 grandkids. 16 great grandkids (this number ALWAYS growing!) so to gather everyone was truely wonderful. little did we know 2 weeks later we would loose Luke. To see my family come together in that time still brings me to my knees. we were there for each other. I believe God brought my grandparents back together to help us all get through.... well my grandma spoke of all this and more rough times my family has gone through and the hope we each carried with us. I found some things out friday night that unfortunatly still leaves me sick... it was one of those stories you didn't want to hear... one of those thoughts that no matter what you cannot get out of your head. but i guess i just need to hold my head and hold on to that hope a little more...

my heart is in.... MONTANA!

holy shit. i never thought we would get that phone call. i picked mike up from the airport and we hadn't even reached the free way when mtn states called and said he got the transfer to montana. i cried. like pulled over and cried. it was such a relief. no one can imagine how difficult it is to start a marriage 27 plus hours away. its just dumb. now we've cut the gap but 22 hours and mike is now working in fairfield. its about 40 minutes from great falls and 5 hours from home. thank you Lord! i knew sticking to our guns and waiting it out would be worth it instead of being rediculous and packing up our life here and following him. i didn't give my dreams and goals up so now we're sitting pretty. pretty damn freakin pretty! :) i'm half way done with my intern. ready to job hunt here soon. and with mike being closer that kinda ups our plans to a little sooner. once i get my job i'm going to be crackin down on the house hunt and we should be home owners this spring. and i won't be doing the house hunting alone. mike can come home every single stinkin weekend. i can actually start trying our some of these dinners i've been slaving over. ha... best early christmas present! :-)

this would be my life....

have you ever at any given moment of the day just took one second was said wow this is my life. how cool is this?! it happens to me all the time from various emotions.... my morning texts from mike at 3 in the morning saying to myself. wow my husband lives somewhere else? or a random text from a friend just saying thinkin of you today! anyways mine poped up today as i was busy sealing a crown in this womans mouth. it was such a challenge to keep her from chatting on about her heard of 26 alpacas! she inherited this pack from here ex father in law. very crazy story but in between telling her to hang on it hit me. this is my career! this is pretty much what i'm going to be doing every day. listening to people's stories while helping them out. i love it. its been such a joy working in this office too. they all say they want to keep me but i know they don't have the room so in about 5 weeks i will be on the search to find a dental asst. position elsewhere. its a bittersweet thought....

on the other hand. i have been keeping busy meeting up with all the rowdy buncha people i call my friends! Mike comes home on wednesday and i couldn't be more ready to see his handsome face! :-) we're going to ritzville for thanksgiving which i honeslty dont mind not being with my family during a holiday. Mikes family has always been great in opening their arms and making me feel right at home. all in all i am looking forward to some good quality time with everyone. i'm sure well make it to st maries to see mikes mom and grandpa. which is always just so easy! she adores michael (i know who doesn't!?) but its really sweet... plus she always wants to hear me ramble about my boring old life. she will probably ask us every hour when we plan on giving her some grandbabies! she's up there with the wanting to be a grandma BAD along side my ma! :) love it.

off to yoga! :)

who knew a normal job would be this exhausting?!

whew okay i'm a little behind on my update... first off my trip to denver was wonderful. we went did a few random things like accidently find buffalo bills grave site and spend an hour and a half looking through cheapo survinors trying to pick something out... we went to the coors factory too and took some very serious beer pictures. but of course none of us so its pointless trying to upload. ha we had a blast and i always love the time we spend together. when i first landed we were both so exhausted we went and grabbed food and headed to the hotel. we spend 6 solid hours just talking.... it was amazing... we talk every day yes but its hard to actually talk about the important details of things. so we officially have things set and will let you all know the details when they come up :-) lets just say i was very happy at the end.

now the part of my life that has taken over! my extern! holy cow i figured monday thru thursday 8 to 5 no big i will have so much time on my hands... eeerrr wrong. i'm plan exhausted at the end of the day! i haven't even seen my mom this whole week which never ever happens. i am very thankful i don't have to work while doing this because i would be a total wreck!!

i love the office though i could not have picked a better place... i went out to grab a beer and fried food with some of the girls last night. lets be honest they're my kind of people! i spend more time with these woman than anyone else and am so blessed to have formed such a solid bond with them. they told me they want to keep me! i don't know yet about any actually employment but i'm not ruleing it out. i've been able to assist in a few things nothing too extreme but i did get my first extraction which was awesome! anyways literally being a dental asst. right now is completly my life. its hard throughout the week but once the weekend hits i'm definanly able to cut loose and just relax (no homework!!) this weekend hopefully i will be able to jam on down to moscow with miss sam for some football! yay! only if i get my stupid car taken car of! needless to say i will not be sleeping in tomorrow! things need to be done early... welcome to adulthood. bleh! :)