Some of you might remember my 25 before 25 bucket list. I managed to get most of them but when I wrote that list I don't think I really thought about some of the goals. Run a half marathon, yeah that probably wasn't going to happen given the fact that I'm alone with the kids and they can only stand hanging out in the stroller for 30 minutes before loosing their shit.
a few others I didn't get that have rolled over into my new bucket list 30 before 30! I turn 30 in approximately 3 years and 4 months. Plenty of time considering most my goals are big ticket items...
1. grow our own garden
2. learn to make sushi
3. start a successful monthly book club
4. go to costa rica (finally take that honeymoon!!!)
5. become completely debt free except for our house
6. recycle
7. completely organize and simplify our house
8. paint the walls
9. purchase rocking chairs for the front porch
10. bake my own bread
11. paint the front door
12. volunteer
13. join a church bible study
14. have dinner parties
15. start blogging again
16. girls trip
17. learn to make French macaroons
18. go snow shoeing
19. stay in a yurt on the Oregon Coast
20. take a class at the college
21. learn to do a head stand
22. go paddle boarding
23. complete the no spend challenge
24. invest wisely- financially and personally
25. own leopard flats
26. send birthday cards
27. play volleyball on the beach, in a bikini & feel confident
28. run a 10k
29. read a book with Mike
30. turn 30 in style!
There ya have it. Even after re-reading my list I get excited at challenging myself and exploring and learning new things. I know most people think making bucket lists is a silly thing to do but I love doing them. I make lists and goals for everything... I think it pushes me to be a better person and helps me mold into the type of wife, mother, and woman I want to be.
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Monday, November 25, 2013
Being a Classy Lady
We had such a fun weekend, it was filled with date nights, girls day and play dates! I had had our weekend planned out for a few weeks now and actually realized that our date night and girls day crossed two tasks off my 25 before 25 list this last week before. My dad actually remembered before me!
Friday night Brandy and Mike get all the credit. They got tickets for the Trans Siberian Orchestra! Our night started with dinner and a bottle of yummy Latah Creek Huckleberry wine at the Stem Plant. Honestly we weren't over impressed with the food but the atmosphere, good wine and great company made up for it.
Once we got to our seats we were ready to rock out. Seriously! I didn't really know what we were going to see, yah I'd heard of them and a few songs but holy cow I was impressed!! It was 80 rock mixed with Christmas music and LIGHTS!!! I might be adding "learn how to whip my hair back n forth like a Siberian rocker" to my next bucket list. If you've never seen them before make it a goal next Christmas to go. You will not be disappointed, it was awesome. I've posted a link below in case you need some convincing, this clip is just a small part of the amazing 3 hour show!!
#19 Go See a Play or Musical: CHECK! tran siberian rockers! <<< Go watch!!!
Saturday was a full day of shopping, wine and some of my favorite ladies!! If you've never heard of Real Deals you need to check out their facebook place HERE and than go visit the store! Its located on Dalton, kind of behind Skate Plaza. Only open Thursday and Saturdays but go! They have the best home décor for great prices!
Well Saturday Kristin (owner of Real Deals) put together a bus tour. Basically we rode a bus around town (and out of town) to 10 the adorable shopping places in Cda, drinking wine and eating snacks. It was a blast!! Mom had gone on one last year and I was so jealous!! I'm so happy I got to go this year... I defiantly got some way cute stuff, my favorites my new "classy trailer trash" apron and burlap stockings. so fun.
When we were out and about we stopped at Latah Creek Winery (remember my yummy wine from the night before?!) at the winery we actually got to walk around and taste different wines with different pairings, hello #25 go to a wine tasting. I literally didn't realize this until we were almost leaving so I snagged this picture real fast ;)
The busy weekend left me pretty exhausted and ready for a lazy Sunday, morning coffee with Whitney while the babies played and we finally got to catch up, while Mike was off hunting all day. Complete with family dinner and Walking Dead (anyone else getting reeeally annoyed all they're showing is the governor?!)
Anyways I hope every has a wonderful Thanksgiving week! My lineman is off all week so we have some projects to finish up, a day trip planned and will be heading to Ritzville for Thanksgiving Day.
Count your blessings friends!
Friday night Brandy and Mike get all the credit. They got tickets for the Trans Siberian Orchestra! Our night started with dinner and a bottle of yummy Latah Creek Huckleberry wine at the Stem Plant. Honestly we weren't over impressed with the food but the atmosphere, good wine and great company made up for it.
mmmmmm.....
our group
very best frans.
Once we got to our seats we were ready to rock out. Seriously! I didn't really know what we were going to see, yah I'd heard of them and a few songs but holy cow I was impressed!! It was 80 rock mixed with Christmas music and LIGHTS!!! I might be adding "learn how to whip my hair back n forth like a Siberian rocker" to my next bucket list. If you've never seen them before make it a goal next Christmas to go. You will not be disappointed, it was awesome. I've posted a link below in case you need some convincing, this clip is just a small part of the amazing 3 hour show!!
concert pictures always suck haha
#19 Go See a Play or Musical: CHECK! tran siberian rockers! <<< Go watch!!!
Saturday was a full day of shopping, wine and some of my favorite ladies!! If you've never heard of Real Deals you need to check out their facebook place HERE and than go visit the store! Its located on Dalton, kind of behind Skate Plaza. Only open Thursday and Saturdays but go! They have the best home décor for great prices!
our group
Well Saturday Kristin (owner of Real Deals) put together a bus tour. Basically we rode a bus around town (and out of town) to 10 the adorable shopping places in Cda, drinking wine and eating snacks. It was a blast!! Mom had gone on one last year and I was so jealous!! I'm so happy I got to go this year... I defiantly got some way cute stuff, my favorites my new "classy trailer trash" apron and burlap stockings. so fun.
my mommy <3
When we were out and about we stopped at Latah Creek Winery (remember my yummy wine from the night before?!) at the winery we actually got to walk around and taste different wines with different pairings, hello #25 go to a wine tasting. I literally didn't realize this until we were almost leaving so I snagged this picture real fast ;)
wine tasting!
Latah Creek Winery!
The busy weekend left me pretty exhausted and ready for a lazy Sunday, morning coffee with Whitney while the babies played and we finally got to catch up, while Mike was off hunting all day. Complete with family dinner and Walking Dead (anyone else getting reeeally annoyed all they're showing is the governor?!)
Anyways I hope every has a wonderful Thanksgiving week! My lineman is off all week so we have some projects to finish up, a day trip planned and will be heading to Ritzville for Thanksgiving Day.
Count your blessings friends!
in Wesson's world Jesus rides 4 wheelers.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Thankful November
Since 90% of my facebook friends are sharing their "daily thing to be thankful for" deal in November I thought I'd share my number 6 on my 25 before 25 list. #6 is start and keep a daily gratitude notebook.
This is one of the simple, favorites that I'm so glad I've stuck to. Since I've been keeping this since February I'm obviously not going to share them all but I'd like to share a couple that made me smile while flipping through just now. That was the most pleasantly surprising things about this "task." It literally takes me two seconds but it always makes me smile. I walk into my office before turning on the computer or sitting down I just open up to the day and write down my first thought about the day before. I tried writing down at the end of each day but I'm a tired, cranky person at night so I switched it, it was defeating the purpose ;)
Even if the day was completely boring I have to share one thing so it automatically gets my brain being positive. It really does work! I obviously don't have one for every single day, in the beginning and over the summer I was really bad about doing it daily but since September I've been pretty consistent.
Here are a few...
2-15 Mike is back to work
2-25 SUNSHINE!
3-27 Having Kristina move to Alamo! I'm not alone!
4-14 Sunday linefamily dinners
4-26 My baby is ONE!
6-25 Having my very own washer and dryer
6-26 Wearing my beautiful ring for 5 years now... (Happy birthday to my hubs!)
7-14 Naked babes running through sprinklers
9-5 birthday cake
9-20 NSUJL
10-22 ILR experience
November Favorites:
11-1 Trick or Treating as a family of 3
11-3 party like we're 20 at Halloween party
11-4 Real Sunday Family Dinners
11-6 Girls Night every Tuesday!
11-7 Strong yoga classes that make your legs feel like noodles
11-8 Getting my hair done
11-9 my awesome organizing skills
11-10 thankful for amazing friends who show up at events
11-14 sneaking away for an afternoon movie thanks to my mom always watching Wes
11-17 BIG NEWS I CAN'T SHARE IN PUBLIC YET!!! EEEEKK! :) :)
11-18 Chicago popcorn mix, seriously so delicious!
So yeah my "thankfulness" is random and possibly boring but its the littlest thing that can set your heart in a positive position for the day. Not to say I don't get drug down through out the day by life but I can at least start most days off with a full heart and clear mind!
I challenge you, you friends who really only think about what your thankful for during one month of the year... get out a notebook and see if you can do it at least every other day for the next year.... Maybe you'll smile more in the process.
This is one of the simple, favorites that I'm so glad I've stuck to. Since I've been keeping this since February I'm obviously not going to share them all but I'd like to share a couple that made me smile while flipping through just now. That was the most pleasantly surprising things about this "task." It literally takes me two seconds but it always makes me smile. I walk into my office before turning on the computer or sitting down I just open up to the day and write down my first thought about the day before. I tried writing down at the end of each day but I'm a tired, cranky person at night so I switched it, it was defeating the purpose ;)
Even if the day was completely boring I have to share one thing so it automatically gets my brain being positive. It really does work! I obviously don't have one for every single day, in the beginning and over the summer I was really bad about doing it daily but since September I've been pretty consistent.
Here are a few...
2-15 Mike is back to work
2-25 SUNSHINE!
3-27 Having Kristina move to Alamo! I'm not alone!
4-14 Sunday linefamily dinners
4-26 My baby is ONE!
6-25 Having my very own washer and dryer
6-26 Wearing my beautiful ring for 5 years now... (Happy birthday to my hubs!)
7-14 Naked babes running through sprinklers
9-5 birthday cake
9-20 NSUJL
10-22 ILR experience
November Favorites:
11-1 Trick or Treating as a family of 3
11-3 party like we're 20 at Halloween party
11-4 Real Sunday Family Dinners
11-6 Girls Night every Tuesday!
11-7 Strong yoga classes that make your legs feel like noodles
11-8 Getting my hair done
11-9 my awesome organizing skills
11-10 thankful for amazing friends who show up at events
11-14 sneaking away for an afternoon movie thanks to my mom always watching Wes
11-17 BIG NEWS I CAN'T SHARE IN PUBLIC YET!!! EEEEKK! :) :)
11-18 Chicago popcorn mix, seriously so delicious!
So yeah my "thankfulness" is random and possibly boring but its the littlest thing that can set your heart in a positive position for the day. Not to say I don't get drug down through out the day by life but I can at least start most days off with a full heart and clear mind!
I challenge you, you friends who really only think about what your thankful for during one month of the year... get out a notebook and see if you can do it at least every other day for the next year.... Maybe you'll smile more in the process.
Friday, April 26, 2013
The day we met Wesson Michael.
Its 5:30am on April 26th, this time last year we were officially checked in at KMC, Mom was probably just showing up with fuel for Mike and Brandy & Robyn were coming to keep me company while Mike snoozed.... wow one year ago. If you're a momma and feeling sentimental about birth go read this, my birth story. I bawled my eyes out. Thank you again Dad for the pictures.
Time sure does go quickly, too quick. We have a one year old. A crazy couch climbing, puppy chasing, pb&j eating, almost walking, always talking big, one year old son. I'm in shock and so much in love. I'm such a mom now, eeek!
The days I would dream of my future husband and family, the hours Mike and I spend over talking about our future babies, the moments I would feel my baby boy moving my tummy and dreaming what'd he be like. Those all seem so long ago. Distant memories.
My days are now filled with early morning slobbers, wet shirts because Wes loves to climb out of the tub and into my arms. I'm busy pushing Remmi aside to clean up the left over lunches. Making walks back and forth to the laundry mat and folding little boy shirts, not just onsies now. I was picking up a pair of Wesson's shorts and noticed he got a grass stain on it, how do I have a such a little boy already?!
Wesson may be my identical twin, okay Christopher's twin but he has his daddy's attitude. He is so laid back and welcomes every day with a smile. Wes already has the sweetest personality but knows how to be such a stinker at times. He takes on new challenges and loves to push the adventure line. I was slow closing our screen door a few weeks back and that little guy went straight for the escape... and right down the steps. He cried, I cried; but I held on too long, he wanted to try it again. He laughs over any and everything, he loves to make us smile.
I knew he would change our lives but I had no idea how much he would be my little buddy. We've made a home in 5 different towns and he's made the transitions easier. How does a less than one year old offer so much peace and comfort during crazy moves!? I've branched out into different communities more since Wes, you don't look like such a loner when you're holding the hand of a cute boy. Bringing a newborn into a trailer life is a difficult task but having such a perfect baby makes life so much easier.
I should probably finish up here and start my day before Wes thinks its time to start his birthday. (or before I decide its time he wakes up... hey what can I say I get excited!) He's really hilarious in the mornings, he wakes up every day laughing. Typically tossing his giraffe on the ground letting me know he's ready to start the day and explore something new.
Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet baby boy. We love you so much.
Time sure does go quickly, too quick. We have a one year old. A crazy couch climbing, puppy chasing, pb&j eating, almost walking, always talking big, one year old son. I'm in shock and so much in love. I'm such a mom now, eeek!
The days I would dream of my future husband and family, the hours Mike and I spend over talking about our future babies, the moments I would feel my baby boy moving my tummy and dreaming what'd he be like. Those all seem so long ago. Distant memories.
My days are now filled with early morning slobbers, wet shirts because Wes loves to climb out of the tub and into my arms. I'm busy pushing Remmi aside to clean up the left over lunches. Making walks back and forth to the laundry mat and folding little boy shirts, not just onsies now. I was picking up a pair of Wesson's shorts and noticed he got a grass stain on it, how do I have a such a little boy already?!
Wesson may be my identical twin, okay Christopher's twin but he has his daddy's attitude. He is so laid back and welcomes every day with a smile. Wes already has the sweetest personality but knows how to be such a stinker at times. He takes on new challenges and loves to push the adventure line. I was slow closing our screen door a few weeks back and that little guy went straight for the escape... and right down the steps. He cried, I cried; but I held on too long, he wanted to try it again. He laughs over any and everything, he loves to make us smile.
I knew he would change our lives but I had no idea how much he would be my little buddy. We've made a home in 5 different towns and he's made the transitions easier. How does a less than one year old offer so much peace and comfort during crazy moves!? I've branched out into different communities more since Wes, you don't look like such a loner when you're holding the hand of a cute boy. Bringing a newborn into a trailer life is a difficult task but having such a perfect baby makes life so much easier.
I should probably finish up here and start my day before Wes thinks its time to start his birthday. (or before I decide its time he wakes up... hey what can I say I get excited!) He's really hilarious in the mornings, he wakes up every day laughing. Typically tossing his giraffe on the ground letting me know he's ready to start the day and explore something new.
Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet baby boy. We love you so much.
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
January
February
March
You make our days that much sweeter, baby boy!
Monday, February 4, 2013
25 Before 25
Tomorrow is my cousin, Justine's birthday (happy birthday! :)) which means Mike's birthday is in 4 months and mine is in exactly 7 months. We're all turning 24, which means next year we'll be 25! ouch. Good bye early twenties, smack dab into mid twenties... you all know me and my mind goes a mile a minute and thinking about ages really got it going this morning! Tomorrow in exactly 19 months I'll be 25. I know you all are probably giving the computer the eye roll and the look my husband just gave me when I was explaining this but roll with me...
In my 23.4 years I think I've accomplished quite a bit but getting married at 20 and having a baby at 21 cut my "crazy, try random things years" short. Now don't get me wrong, trust me I wouldn't change one single decision about starting my family life young, there are just a few things I want to do moving forward. I'm excited to have my cheering squad be my sweet husband and adorable monster child.
So here we go. Here's what I hope to accomplish in 19 months... 25 before I turn 25!
Stay tuned to see if I can get these crossed off! :)
In my 23.4 years I think I've accomplished quite a bit but getting married at 20 and having a baby at 21 cut my "crazy, try random things years" short. Now don't get me wrong, trust me I wouldn't change one single decision about starting my family life young, there are just a few things I want to do moving forward. I'm excited to have my cheering squad be my sweet husband and adorable monster child.
So here we go. Here's what I hope to accomplish in 19 months... 25 before I turn 25!
- learn to bake a huckleberry pie 100% from scratch
- run a half marathon
- try sushi YUM & DONE
- join the Gallon Club (donating 1 gal of blood)
- go unplugged once a month
- start (and keep) a daily gratitude notebook Thankful November
- have a full service spa day OH YAH! Read HERE!
- attend a weekend yoga retreat READ HERE and more pictures :)
- take Wesson to visit the Seattle Zoo
- purchase our first home
- learn to use the BBQ Although I never posted I did successful BBQ chicken ;)
- have a semi stylish closet
- host Easter brunch
- read all Harry Potter books and watch all the movies FINISHED! loved the books :)
- join a family church and get involved
- back pack overnight into God's water slides COMPLETED! Read about it here!
- save money and stick to our debt free plan
- learn to use my sewing machine
- go see a play or musical Trans Siberian Orchestra
- have baby McBride number two
- run a mud run with Mike DONE! Read about it here!
- plan our honeymoon Hawaii? Mexico? Vegas?
- snowshoe
- get involved with the NSUJL NW Regional Director! HERE
- go to a wine tasting Latah Creek Winery
Stay tuned to see if I can get these crossed off! :)
Friday, February 1, 2013
Sandy Hook Snowflake Response
Randomly after dinner last night, Mike asked me if I'd heard how the kids responded to the snowflakes. I felt a little guilty that I hadn't looked into it until now but now that I am searching for the responses I'm falling kind of short.
Here's what I have found though! A few short articles saying that CT PTA had to put a "thank you but no thank" stop to receiving more snowflakes. Apparently the snowflake project turned into a giant blizzard coming from all over the WORLD! Over SIX million snowflakes found their way to Newtown!! I think that's pretty rad and gives me a little hope that people do care. In response to the stopping of snowflakes, some schools have taken the time and effort to hang snowflakes in their own schools to show support!
I did find a couple picutres of the snowflakes but if you've come across any other info please share :)
Here's what I have found though! A few short articles saying that CT PTA had to put a "thank you but no thank" stop to receiving more snowflakes. Apparently the snowflake project turned into a giant blizzard coming from all over the WORLD! Over SIX million snowflakes found their way to Newtown!! I think that's pretty rad and gives me a little hope that people do care. In response to the stopping of snowflakes, some schools have taken the time and effort to hang snowflakes in their own schools to show support!
I did find a couple picutres of the snowflakes but if you've come across any other info please share :)
if you look closely the windows are filled with snowflakes!
yup that's a "blizzard of love!"
Happy Friday friends! Hope everyone has a fun filled weekend... Mike is up getting ready to head to Helena for an extra study day before he goes next Friday for the last of his Journeyman Lineman Test :)
Monday, December 31, 2012
twenty-thirteen
Well here we are again... making plans to watch the ball drop, eating the rest of the junk food in the house, setting resolutions, and reflecting back on the year.
2012 was a year full of lessons, some pretty tough ones and some pretty wonderful ones. It bizarre to think a year ago I was big & pregnant, living with my parents, playing DD and going home to an empty bed. We may still be living in the trailer but at least I get to kiss my husband tonight. Although it was so tough not having Mike working last year, he was at least able to come to all my last doctors appointments and was there for my first contraction. I know everything happens for a reason ;)
This last year Mike and I have really grown up. Moving to Colorado with a 3 week old was kind of a reality shock. Going from living with your mom and than having to fully be a mom with zero help was kind of like being thrown to the wolves in the baby raising business. Luckily Wesson is basically a dream baby so it made it pretty easy on us and we've become damn good parents if I say so myself. We've also really grown into our roles as husband and wife. We've been living this crazy, sporadic life that forced us to say good bye to whats easy and forced us to relay on each other for support.
Its weird we've been talking about how we were suppose to be moving home soon and honestly part of me doesn't know if I'm ready (insert huge gasp!) I know I sound like a crazy person right now but I'm not sure I'm ready to share my family yet. I think this family needs just one more adventure. Which as soon as we get that call we're on it ;) Yes we miss home, friends, and family and we're more than ready to have a real life home but I've really found myself while going through this apprenticeship. I really like the wife, mom, & woman I'm becoming. I've made peace with my mistakes and learned to forgive myself and not let those hold me back. I'm learning the type of friend I want to be and the types of people I want around my family. I've learned to not expect anything of people, not in the aggressive I don't need you crap but in the I can't change people and situations so let it go type.
With that being said I guess that's another 2012 resolution I finally finished. I think all my life I've always put "let people go, don't let people get to me" one version or another and I think I'm finally okay with it.
As for our other 2012 resolutions we hit probably half of them. I did have a natural birth (woop!) and I plan on having all my babies natural, I lost my pregnancy weight and some more! I feel awesome! I'm on my way to the best shape of my life and loving the process. We did pay off more things but surprise added more on, such is life yah? Mike may not have fully finished the apprenticeship but between passing his tests and only have a couple hundred hours left I'd say we're pretty damn close! As far as Remmi listening better weeell he does.... just cost us a grand! hah. still so worth it though!
So in true "Cayla Fashion" here's our 2013 resolutions!
Fitness: continue running and see how many miles I can put behind me
there are about 4 yoga poses I'm hoping to "master" this year
Mental: finding the light in our darkest times, stop focusing on the negative side of set backs
accepting things/situations I can't change
forgive & move on, with or without apologizes
Family: purchase our first home!
Mike's journeyman's ticket
financial goals
Its safe to say we're ready for 2013. We will 100% for sure be moving home this year. Not sure the time limit now but it should be no later than June, perfect time to buy our first home and have summer welcome us back! Until than we'll continue to hold onto these days of just us four, exploring new towns, learning more about ourselves, and fully enjoying the "little moments."
Happy News Years friends & family.
2012 was a year full of lessons, some pretty tough ones and some pretty wonderful ones. It bizarre to think a year ago I was big & pregnant, living with my parents, playing DD and going home to an empty bed. We may still be living in the trailer but at least I get to kiss my husband tonight. Although it was so tough not having Mike working last year, he was at least able to come to all my last doctors appointments and was there for my first contraction. I know everything happens for a reason ;)
This last year Mike and I have really grown up. Moving to Colorado with a 3 week old was kind of a reality shock. Going from living with your mom and than having to fully be a mom with zero help was kind of like being thrown to the wolves in the baby raising business. Luckily Wesson is basically a dream baby so it made it pretty easy on us and we've become damn good parents if I say so myself. We've also really grown into our roles as husband and wife. We've been living this crazy, sporadic life that forced us to say good bye to whats easy and forced us to relay on each other for support.
Its weird we've been talking about how we were suppose to be moving home soon and honestly part of me doesn't know if I'm ready (insert huge gasp!) I know I sound like a crazy person right now but I'm not sure I'm ready to share my family yet. I think this family needs just one more adventure. Which as soon as we get that call we're on it ;) Yes we miss home, friends, and family and we're more than ready to have a real life home but I've really found myself while going through this apprenticeship. I really like the wife, mom, & woman I'm becoming. I've made peace with my mistakes and learned to forgive myself and not let those hold me back. I'm learning the type of friend I want to be and the types of people I want around my family. I've learned to not expect anything of people, not in the aggressive I don't need you crap but in the I can't change people and situations so let it go type.
With that being said I guess that's another 2012 resolution I finally finished. I think all my life I've always put "let people go, don't let people get to me" one version or another and I think I'm finally okay with it.
As for our other 2012 resolutions we hit probably half of them. I did have a natural birth (woop!) and I plan on having all my babies natural, I lost my pregnancy weight and some more! I feel awesome! I'm on my way to the best shape of my life and loving the process. We did pay off more things but surprise added more on, such is life yah? Mike may not have fully finished the apprenticeship but between passing his tests and only have a couple hundred hours left I'd say we're pretty damn close! As far as Remmi listening better weeell he does.... just cost us a grand! hah. still so worth it though!
So in true "Cayla Fashion" here's our 2013 resolutions!
Fitness: continue running and see how many miles I can put behind me
there are about 4 yoga poses I'm hoping to "master" this year
Mental: finding the light in our darkest times, stop focusing on the negative side of set backs
accepting things/situations I can't change
forgive & move on, with or without apologizes
Family: purchase our first home!
Mike's journeyman's ticket
financial goals
Its safe to say we're ready for 2013. We will 100% for sure be moving home this year. Not sure the time limit now but it should be no later than June, perfect time to buy our first home and have summer welcome us back! Until than we'll continue to hold onto these days of just us four, exploring new towns, learning more about ourselves, and fully enjoying the "little moments."
Happy News Years friends & family.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
these are a few of my favorite things... par deux
its no surprise i'm an anxious person. i like to have things planned out and if i get an idea in my head it needs to happen... like right this second. so with our upcoming trip home for thanksgiving of course i've been preparing so we'll have an organized, stress free trip.... problem: i did that last week. so here i am bored out of my mind, seeing facebook updates of "heading home" gah. i wanna post that! to make matters worse wesson has been a dream baby all week (yes i said worse... i don't have little mister distracting me from time watching) and Mike has been packing on the hours this week... he's already at 70 hours and that's not counting today monday or tuesday. plus he's beens studying like a mad man for his upcoming JL test so he comes home, eats and leaves again. as Kristina (another fellow linewife blogger) said I did not move into the trailer to be alone! -insert big sigh!-
so in light of my pity party today i'm trying to focus on little positives we have going on and since i'm bored why not share it with all of you?? ahh aren't i sweet? ;)
all rambling aside i am so ready for tuesday night!! i have a bag full of junk food and a new pandora station ready to roll! only roughly 52 hours left, but who's counting.
so in light of my pity party today i'm trying to focus on little positives we have going on and since i'm bored why not share it with all of you?? ahh aren't i sweet? ;)
- the fact we are 75% done christmas shopping! woop. wednesday we'll be completely done... mike and i are finally getting a whole day to ourselves to go christmas shopping for wes and rem, seriously its going to be wonderful.
- we only have 3 weeks left until we get remmi back! this of course is a half full/half empty deal... i miss that dog so much its kinda pathetic. i went for a walk last week and the neighbors asked where he was. now that's sad.
- i've managed to sneak away (before mike sneaks away to study... boo) the last two nights for a quick run. again bittersweet deal because running at night is scary enough and without remmi its really terrifying!! but the neighbors still cheer me on so that makes me feel better, ha. i better get my booty running, seeing all my running friends throwing the miles behind them is really exciting slash really intimating! proud of you all!!
- finally finding tea i really like! i love, love, love coffee but its been really messing with my head if i drink it in the afternoons so i've been testing different teas out and have decided i really like the brand Yogi. (i know right?)
- speaking of i've found a new studio right up the road! i've only had a chance to go once but after vaca mike said he's giving studying a rest (thank God) so i can go twice a week.
- finishing the last 8 week challenge and still managing to keep up and loose another pound this week. i think i've finally found a solid routine with eating and working out where its just habit now. fyi we'll be doing another challenge the start of the new year... any and everyone is welcome to join!!
- being able to finally put our flannel sheets on the bed. flannels + electric blanket makes me never want to leave my bed!
- my linewife ladies... they are the best group of ladies. even though i've never met some of them in person i feel like i could call them up (and i have) any time of the day if i needed to bitch about the job, trailer, or just life. they understand. they get it. they are all totally my person.
- having so many baby options in this community! its so great, the library really does a great job of providing an up to date schedule of events.... so far we've only gone to books & babies. but its on our december list to check out baby yoga and baby sign language. wesson is getting to be so active and now that he claps he's able to really show when he's excited! sometime in december we get to go sign christmas carols at the retirement center, fun!
- having our dvr is the best. i don't have to miss any of my old favorite and new favs... nashville anyone?! love! plus since mike's been ditching out on me this week we have a whole week of shows lined up that we didn't have to miss.
- oh and how could i not add the most recent happy moment... that i'm 5 1/2 weeks along! hahaha seriously that whole post just made my day yesterday. i did recieve a few phone calls and texts for those dear friends who did not read the whole thing. and of course again my favorite of christopher calling me basically in tears because he had to find out over facebook. poor guy... i'm glad to see if we really were expecting already how many people would be happy for us :) thanks for the chuckle!!
all rambling aside i am so ready for tuesday night!! i have a bag full of junk food and a new pandora station ready to roll! only roughly 52 hours left, but who's counting.
Monday, October 8, 2012
going home...
there is a certain comfort of finally seeing that coeur d'alene lake that just welcomes you into town... especially after its been 3 months since you've been home.... i need that.
yes plans changed mom was planning on coming to stay with me while mike was in helena for class weekend but i need a break. she would only be able to come for the weekend and i feel like i need more mommy time! so i'm coming home tonight. i decided to come last week after trying to blow dry my hair and i blew my breaker (guess i can't have my fire place on at the same time... lesson learned.) little trailer lessons are adding up and getting harder to cope with. i know i probably sound ridiculous but i need a revamp. besides i could tell you hundreds of horror stories about our little adventure in the trailer park...
i will be leaving tonight after yoga so around 830pm. my boys will hopefully snooze the whole way there and i'll be waking up refreshed to a cup of coffee with my mom. i need that. i need to not worry about latching remmi on his leash before letting him out (yes he escaped for 2 hours last week...again.) i need a few days to catch up with my favorite girlfriends. i want to go to greensbluff and visit my other mommy friends. i want to take a bath damn it! also i'll be bring loads of dirty clothes... what trip home isn't complete with pawning of mom and dads washer/dryer?!
i got mike set up with oreos, chips, candy... all that crap stuff i don't have enough control not to eat ;) i'm sad he can't come and i already miss him but i need to relax for a few days so i can take on the rest of our time here. i just keep telling myself just a few months... besides while i'm home i might just need to make sure all our ducks are in a row with buying a house and hell a little house hunting never hurt anyone!
yes plans changed mom was planning on coming to stay with me while mike was in helena for class weekend but i need a break. she would only be able to come for the weekend and i feel like i need more mommy time! so i'm coming home tonight. i decided to come last week after trying to blow dry my hair and i blew my breaker (guess i can't have my fire place on at the same time... lesson learned.) little trailer lessons are adding up and getting harder to cope with. i know i probably sound ridiculous but i need a revamp. besides i could tell you hundreds of horror stories about our little adventure in the trailer park...
i will be leaving tonight after yoga so around 830pm. my boys will hopefully snooze the whole way there and i'll be waking up refreshed to a cup of coffee with my mom. i need that. i need to not worry about latching remmi on his leash before letting him out (yes he escaped for 2 hours last week...again.) i need a few days to catch up with my favorite girlfriends. i want to go to greensbluff and visit my other mommy friends. i want to take a bath damn it! also i'll be bring loads of dirty clothes... what trip home isn't complete with pawning of mom and dads washer/dryer?!
i got mike set up with oreos, chips, candy... all that crap stuff i don't have enough control not to eat ;) i'm sad he can't come and i already miss him but i need to relax for a few days so i can take on the rest of our time here. i just keep telling myself just a few months... besides while i'm home i might just need to make sure all our ducks are in a row with buying a house and hell a little house hunting never hurt anyone!
so yes idaho i will be seeing you tonight... with my two very loud boys in tow :)
Thursday, September 6, 2012
here comes fall!
i know most people always view new years the time for change but i've always felt fall was the best time to make some changes in life... its perfect the leaves are all falling off the trees i've always felt like seeing that was giving the chance to make things clean again. strip down all the bad stuff and learn to be just you and than given the time start to build up again. i'm sure i sound like a crazy person right now but thats fine. i'm posting this for me :) i'm not making any crazy changes just getting back to the basics! letting stresses go...
life is slowly settling down again. we're moving to our new park on saturday and the people i've met already are wonderful. so sweet and caring (of course they love wesson already!) i found a yoga class i'm starting next week thursday. i'm scared to give up one of my evenings with my boys but i know i'm a much happier/relaxed mama when i'm in yoga.... plus all this running has really taking a toll on my hips! i am finally ready to run my first 5k!! i have one i want to run on the 15th... i know i'm not done with the C25K but i thought i'd give it a shot. only issue is of course Mike might have class that weekend so i'm waiting to see. but i am for sure running one on October 6th. "its not over until the fit lady sings!" lol its a run to kick off Bozeman's opera fest! i'm also starting another 8 week challenge this sunday. although i've stayed faithful to my running, my eating and videos have disappeared and i'm slowly watching the numbers climb... if anyone else is interested in joining please let me know and i'll add you to the private group!
i guess over the last month i've really lost focus on the type of woman i want to be. sure i know my "titles" wife, mother, daughter, friend, dog owner... but i'm barely touching the surfaces! we've been so focuesd on go go go and moving. mike is going to be taking his journeyman test in a few months and i need to be more supportive and help study more... i've been putting note cards with questions in his lunch every day but mentally i don't feel like i'm being as supportive as i should be. this is our life! wesson is starting to eat real foods now... yay! i'm so excited to get a grasp on this baby food making business. i feel a little scattered but i'm going to the farmers market tonight and hopefully get some fresh veggies!
as far as friendships go...over the last month i've taking the time to slowly let go of some friendships. its hurts to know that some people just don't want to be supportive and understanding when life is changing so much. i wish them the best i really do. i'll miss the old friendship we used to have and who knows if one day we'll have more in common and be able to move forward again but for now i've taken to removing those people after pointlessly trying to explain how i felt. once i stopped wondering what happened and let it all go i'm amazed at the other friendships that have popped up.
i've slowly been strengthening other relationships... its so nice to have conversations about whats going on and people be genuinely happy and interested. i've really connected with some fabulous ladies who are always linewives. SO nice to be able to vent about this crazy job! i'm in the process of finding a mommy group just to have some actual facetime convos... this will probably save my husband hours of my pointless rambling and possible save him from jean shopping with me. hah.
there's just something so comforting in settling into a new/old routine again. realizing what you want, how you want to feel and making that happen. taking the time to really appreciate what you have around you and sharing that good feeling with others. happy autumn friends! :)
Peace: it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart. <3
life is slowly settling down again. we're moving to our new park on saturday and the people i've met already are wonderful. so sweet and caring (of course they love wesson already!) i found a yoga class i'm starting next week thursday. i'm scared to give up one of my evenings with my boys but i know i'm a much happier/relaxed mama when i'm in yoga.... plus all this running has really taking a toll on my hips! i am finally ready to run my first 5k!! i have one i want to run on the 15th... i know i'm not done with the C25K but i thought i'd give it a shot. only issue is of course Mike might have class that weekend so i'm waiting to see. but i am for sure running one on October 6th. "its not over until the fit lady sings!" lol its a run to kick off Bozeman's opera fest! i'm also starting another 8 week challenge this sunday. although i've stayed faithful to my running, my eating and videos have disappeared and i'm slowly watching the numbers climb... if anyone else is interested in joining please let me know and i'll add you to the private group!
i guess over the last month i've really lost focus on the type of woman i want to be. sure i know my "titles" wife, mother, daughter, friend, dog owner... but i'm barely touching the surfaces! we've been so focuesd on go go go and moving. mike is going to be taking his journeyman test in a few months and i need to be more supportive and help study more... i've been putting note cards with questions in his lunch every day but mentally i don't feel like i'm being as supportive as i should be. this is our life! wesson is starting to eat real foods now... yay! i'm so excited to get a grasp on this baby food making business. i feel a little scattered but i'm going to the farmers market tonight and hopefully get some fresh veggies!
as far as friendships go...over the last month i've taking the time to slowly let go of some friendships. its hurts to know that some people just don't want to be supportive and understanding when life is changing so much. i wish them the best i really do. i'll miss the old friendship we used to have and who knows if one day we'll have more in common and be able to move forward again but for now i've taken to removing those people after pointlessly trying to explain how i felt. once i stopped wondering what happened and let it all go i'm amazed at the other friendships that have popped up.
i've slowly been strengthening other relationships... its so nice to have conversations about whats going on and people be genuinely happy and interested. i've really connected with some fabulous ladies who are always linewives. SO nice to be able to vent about this crazy job! i'm in the process of finding a mommy group just to have some actual facetime convos... this will probably save my husband hours of my pointless rambling and possible save him from jean shopping with me. hah.there's just something so comforting in settling into a new/old routine again. realizing what you want, how you want to feel and making that happen. taking the time to really appreciate what you have around you and sharing that good feeling with others. happy autumn friends! :)
Peace: it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart. <3
Monday, June 25, 2012
2nd chances.
i cannot believe tomorrow Wesson will be two months old... its scary, exciting, and so rewarding...
my son is a huge part of my life, obviously. i love every minute we spend together. our early morning smiles, morning baths (which i have to refill the water typically twice because i can't bear to break his smile and take him out yet...) our baby yoga in the afternoons, and one of my favorites saying our night time prayers. i'm very, very lucky i get to do this things. i have a husband who provides for us. its crazy to think i will never have to work if i don't want to. i get to watch my babies grow daily. trust me i do not take this for granted.
i'm blessed, not just oh yah i'm having a good day blessed. i'm truely blessed with my life. i went through some horrible times with my husband. looking back now i'd like to smack my 21 year old retard self for almost loosing the man i get to share these memories with. we're typical parents now. our conversations revolve around Wes. this is exactly how i've pictured my life. well minus the trailer and colorado part. we are constantly planning our evenings and weekends for what we want to do and what time so we can beat the heat. i love our evenings now. after wesson goes down for the night he cracks a beer i grab my wine and we sit and play cards for hours and chat about days... i don't think i ever want cable again! okay thats a lie... we rent lots of movies too ha.
its hard getting married and having a baby before your friends.... but i chose this route i wanted this... it stings a little to know i really am loosing connections with my girlfriends. my life is one baby time, not happy hour. that's okay though. i'm excited for the day they call me up asking for advice on diapers or to call and share the exciting news of their baby laughing, or rolling over for the first time.... maybe than they'll understand why i was so excited to share my news and disappointed at their nonchallent reaction.
yes this is where i belong though.. getting up before everyone else to get my run in, my half hour spent running with Rem thanking God for giving me my second chance at this life. coming back to snuggle with my husband before either his alarm goes off or my handsome boy wakes up. one of my most treasured hours-- after mike gets off to work, rem and wes sleeping, coffee in hand enjoying a little quiet before taking on those sweet smiles. yes, happy and blessed... i'll take it.
my son is a huge part of my life, obviously. i love every minute we spend together. our early morning smiles, morning baths (which i have to refill the water typically twice because i can't bear to break his smile and take him out yet...) our baby yoga in the afternoons, and one of my favorites saying our night time prayers. i'm very, very lucky i get to do this things. i have a husband who provides for us. its crazy to think i will never have to work if i don't want to. i get to watch my babies grow daily. trust me i do not take this for granted.
i'm blessed, not just oh yah i'm having a good day blessed. i'm truely blessed with my life. i went through some horrible times with my husband. looking back now i'd like to smack my 21 year old retard self for almost loosing the man i get to share these memories with. we're typical parents now. our conversations revolve around Wes. this is exactly how i've pictured my life. well minus the trailer and colorado part. we are constantly planning our evenings and weekends for what we want to do and what time so we can beat the heat. i love our evenings now. after wesson goes down for the night he cracks a beer i grab my wine and we sit and play cards for hours and chat about days... i don't think i ever want cable again! okay thats a lie... we rent lots of movies too ha.
its hard getting married and having a baby before your friends.... but i chose this route i wanted this... it stings a little to know i really am loosing connections with my girlfriends. my life is one baby time, not happy hour. that's okay though. i'm excited for the day they call me up asking for advice on diapers or to call and share the exciting news of their baby laughing, or rolling over for the first time.... maybe than they'll understand why i was so excited to share my news and disappointed at their nonchallent reaction.
yes this is where i belong though.. getting up before everyone else to get my run in, my half hour spent running with Rem thanking God for giving me my second chance at this life. coming back to snuggle with my husband before either his alarm goes off or my handsome boy wakes up. one of my most treasured hours-- after mike gets off to work, rem and wes sleeping, coffee in hand enjoying a little quiet before taking on those sweet smiles. yes, happy and blessed... i'll take it.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
what we know
-i'm going to have good days and reeeally hard/bad days but i'm strong
-mike can give up junk food and eat healthy with me, who knew! although i had to find a "healthy" cookie recipe for him. oatmeal cookies = 46 cal
-itsy bitsy yoga makes me feel like a total goober but i love it... "iiiiinnnnn, ouuuuut good happy baby!" ha just roll with it
-i've managed to get back to my pre baby weight and i've lost 4 pounds. i am extremly proud of my hard work although this whole flabby tummy, uterus contracting bullshit sucks i'm sticking with it and will hit my goal
-i have probably the worlds best baby. he created his own schedule and is sticking to it
-every mother who has ever said time is going to fly was right. i'm amazed daily at how much wesson is changing and growing... he is the sweetest little boy already.
-mike is working a lot. like 76 hours the last week a lot. its hard for me but harder on him... he finally got to hold his baby this morning. this is the reason i'm here... he may not get to hold him daily but he gets to see him and kiss him good night every single night. worth the long, lonely days for me.
-i have the best friend. Brandy's daily encouraging texts and talks are helping me through. Brandy you're the best ever.
-unlimitated free mobile to mobile calling is the best invention ever. i talk to mom on average 3 times a day.... i love it. i'm so glad she doesn't have a "normal" job these chats push me through rough times
-colorado storms are simply amazing...we've had tornado warnings, high wind warnings, fire warnings and now i'm listening to the thunder roll in while its still 92 degrees out. beautiful.
-i'm married to an incredible man who despite his long hours still manages to rub my back before bed, run spaz dog at 4am so mornings go smoothly for me, fixed my stroller tires after my off roading stunt, and he does it all without one complaint. also guess who's turning the big 2-3 in two weeks...his one request for out for burger, fries, and a beer... go figure! but he said he wants a small icecream cake so we can quickly get back on track. oh i love him.
-i can navigate myself in the truck to the super target, vs, bass pro, and walmart without my navigator now! i suck at city driving though...
-moms who said i'd loose sleep havent met my son... hes going on 9 days of 8 hours solid sleep. simply wonderful.
-i am extremly thankful & blessed i get to be a full time mom. i couldnt imagine sharing these smiles
-i have a frustrating puppy that i cant get rid of
-ive mastered pushing a stroller & walking said frustrating puppy through sandy paths... whew now thats a workout!
-life is so precious. my heart aches for my friend katie who had to say good bye to her sweet 6 month old baby girl. please include them in your prayers tonight....<3
-mike can give up junk food and eat healthy with me, who knew! although i had to find a "healthy" cookie recipe for him. oatmeal cookies = 46 cal
-itsy bitsy yoga makes me feel like a total goober but i love it... "iiiiinnnnn, ouuuuut good happy baby!" ha just roll with it
-i've managed to get back to my pre baby weight and i've lost 4 pounds. i am extremly proud of my hard work although this whole flabby tummy, uterus contracting bullshit sucks i'm sticking with it and will hit my goal
-i have probably the worlds best baby. he created his own schedule and is sticking to it
-every mother who has ever said time is going to fly was right. i'm amazed daily at how much wesson is changing and growing... he is the sweetest little boy already.
-mike is working a lot. like 76 hours the last week a lot. its hard for me but harder on him... he finally got to hold his baby this morning. this is the reason i'm here... he may not get to hold him daily but he gets to see him and kiss him good night every single night. worth the long, lonely days for me.
-i have the best friend. Brandy's daily encouraging texts and talks are helping me through. Brandy you're the best ever.
-unlimitated free mobile to mobile calling is the best invention ever. i talk to mom on average 3 times a day.... i love it. i'm so glad she doesn't have a "normal" job these chats push me through rough times
-colorado storms are simply amazing...we've had tornado warnings, high wind warnings, fire warnings and now i'm listening to the thunder roll in while its still 92 degrees out. beautiful.
-i'm married to an incredible man who despite his long hours still manages to rub my back before bed, run spaz dog at 4am so mornings go smoothly for me, fixed my stroller tires after my off roading stunt, and he does it all without one complaint. also guess who's turning the big 2-3 in two weeks...his one request for out for burger, fries, and a beer... go figure! but he said he wants a small icecream cake so we can quickly get back on track. oh i love him.
-i can navigate myself in the truck to the super target, vs, bass pro, and walmart without my navigator now! i suck at city driving though...
-moms who said i'd loose sleep havent met my son... hes going on 9 days of 8 hours solid sleep. simply wonderful.
-i am extremly thankful & blessed i get to be a full time mom. i couldnt imagine sharing these smiles
-i have a frustrating puppy that i cant get rid of
-ive mastered pushing a stroller & walking said frustrating puppy through sandy paths... whew now thats a workout!
-life is so precious. my heart aches for my friend katie who had to say good bye to her sweet 6 month old baby girl. please include them in your prayers tonight....<3
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
i'm surviving... kinda.
who would ever think i'd be typing that i miss wyoming?! its weird but i do. i knew where things were and everything was bunched together in ONE area... not spread out in an hour radius. Yes Denver has SO much to offer but i have two problems. one: its huge and i get lost and two: its basically takes a day trip to go into Denver and will a almost 6 week old thats kinda of difficult. i'm learning but man its been a rough week.
i caught my parents cold when i left idaho, not the best thing but okay i can handle a cough and a sneeze. never did i dream my sweet baby would catch it! he's okay but seeing him cough and sneeze is hard to watch. i had an over protective mom moment and found a pediatrician right down the road. of course they told him he's fine and there's nothing really i can do except try to comfort him. --side note he weights 9.5 lbs now!! growing boy!!-- this cold has really thrown our wonderful sleeping schedule for a loop... for 4 days Wesson didn't sleep at all in the afternoon and would just cry. i felt so helpless but also i was starting to want to pull my hair out.
i think he's starting to feel a little better now. yesterday he had little crying fits but i was able to finally calm him down and he got some sleep in the afternoon. and last night he slept 9 hours straight!! must be catching up on sleep loss :) but of course Remmi escaped yesterday, not only once but twice!! luckily that dog loves string cheese and i got him home. if its not one baby its another!
its all a lot harder and more overwhelming that i imagined. it doesn't help mike is working SO much! last week he worked 6 12s and last night he informed me he's now going to 7 12s... no day off for this mama. its hard being alone so much right now but i just have to keep thinking the more hours = faster this apprenticeship can go. plus our savings is already building up and we should have a down payment before we know it! have to focus on positives right now!
well there ya go, i'm semi surviving for now. it can really only get better as time goes on and we find our groove here in Brighton!
i caught my parents cold when i left idaho, not the best thing but okay i can handle a cough and a sneeze. never did i dream my sweet baby would catch it! he's okay but seeing him cough and sneeze is hard to watch. i had an over protective mom moment and found a pediatrician right down the road. of course they told him he's fine and there's nothing really i can do except try to comfort him. --side note he weights 9.5 lbs now!! growing boy!!-- this cold has really thrown our wonderful sleeping schedule for a loop... for 4 days Wesson didn't sleep at all in the afternoon and would just cry. i felt so helpless but also i was starting to want to pull my hair out.
i think he's starting to feel a little better now. yesterday he had little crying fits but i was able to finally calm him down and he got some sleep in the afternoon. and last night he slept 9 hours straight!! must be catching up on sleep loss :) but of course Remmi escaped yesterday, not only once but twice!! luckily that dog loves string cheese and i got him home. if its not one baby its another!
its all a lot harder and more overwhelming that i imagined. it doesn't help mike is working SO much! last week he worked 6 12s and last night he informed me he's now going to 7 12s... no day off for this mama. its hard being alone so much right now but i just have to keep thinking the more hours = faster this apprenticeship can go. plus our savings is already building up and we should have a down payment before we know it! have to focus on positives right now!
well there ya go, i'm semi surviving for now. it can really only get better as time goes on and we find our groove here in Brighton!
Thursday, May 31, 2012
My Granola Lifestyle
My Granola Lifestyle.
i've always had an intrest in having a "clean and simple" lifestyle-
eating fresh foods, home cooked meals, and just really having that good balance
to fit it all in. its not that i haven't had time i just haven't made time to
really figure out how to make that work for me. so i decided since having wesson
i really want to make some changes in the way we live. now i'm not talking about
saving the world, boycotting major stores, and stop shaving or anything that
drastic. just simple things to try to cut out some chemicals and eat fresh
homegrown foods.
i probably won't be posting on fb everytime i try something out mainly because i know 95% of you don't really care what we eat but i know my mama does ;) buuut i like to keep record of things to look back on... i chose the name granola lifestyle because when i first started really getting into yoga my parents and brother kept calling me a granola and hippie. i love that yoga comes with such stigma hah.
i hope this helps anyone who's looking to make small steps into a more simple lifestyle and if anyone has suggestions i'd love to hear em.
I'm just a simple guy, I live from day to day. A ray of sunshine melts my frown and blows my blues away. ~Led Zeppelin
i probably won't be posting on fb everytime i try something out mainly because i know 95% of you don't really care what we eat but i know my mama does ;) buuut i like to keep record of things to look back on... i chose the name granola lifestyle because when i first started really getting into yoga my parents and brother kept calling me a granola and hippie. i love that yoga comes with such stigma hah.
i hope this helps anyone who's looking to make small steps into a more simple lifestyle and if anyone has suggestions i'd love to hear em.
I'm just a simple guy, I live from day to day. A ray of sunshine melts my frown and blows my blues away. ~Led Zeppelin
Friday, March 16, 2012
i've got the blues.
"i'm sorry i'm such a crazy cranky person lately..."
"hey don't worry i am here to be your yell and be mad at person. if you forgot i did half this..."
in turn that statement sent me into crying my eyes out. i guess i've been very lucky up until now. my pregnancy has been easy besides the sickness. i stayed active and ate all the right foods but i suppose no matter how hard you work to stay "normal" you're body tells you otherwise. from the begining i refused to be one of those woman who used their pregnancy as an excuse to "slack off" but now i have no choice. i officially cannot do half the things i need to do... walking has become pretty much non existant. after a walk last weekend with the puppies i started having this horrible pain in my lower stomache. i'm not too worried about it i did some searching and am pretty sure he's just getting head down and putting lots of pressure on me....
i have a little over 5 weeks left... but damn its going to be a long 5 weeks. i have a total of 4 shirts that i can fit in, 1 pair of jeans and of course sweat pants. not exactly a wardrobe to make you feel good! i get exhausted getting ready for the day so my hair is in a messy bun 95% of the time.
i was going over my calendar trying to fill the days up more but everything is done now. i had my two beauitful showers and got everything (plus more!) that we needed; i am now waiting to see my materinity pictures so i can at least get some in frames; all of wesson's clothes are washed and put away; our room is fully organized and clean; my birth plan is created and ready to go; the last thing i need to do is pack my hospital bag... which i can't do quite yet obviously. there's not much else i can do to stay busy.
the books are moving... mike was number 8 last week. he'll call this afternoon to see if they moved again. he was number 7 last year when we got called to wyoming... so literally any day he could be leaving me. which is so bittersweet. he needs to get back to work for obviously financial/insurance reasons and to finish up his hours so we can be done with this whole apprenticeship but how am i going to function without him?? i already feel like a teen mom living in my parents house relying on them for so much but at least i have mike here so we can push through together. i'm terrified of where they're going to place them. i know anywhere is a just a plane ticket away but really its so scary knowing my husband won't be there from the beginning...
i guess i just need to push through the horrible random crying sessions, the millions of pee breaks, the sleepless nights, not being able to just jump up off the couch, being constanstly hungry but feeling like throwing up after each bite, and of course the wonderful but horribly painful Wesson kicks. i love them but wow he can get up in some painful positions!
i just can't wait to hold him and see his sweet face... we can't wait to meet you sweet baby Wesson.
"hey don't worry i am here to be your yell and be mad at person. if you forgot i did half this..."
in turn that statement sent me into crying my eyes out. i guess i've been very lucky up until now. my pregnancy has been easy besides the sickness. i stayed active and ate all the right foods but i suppose no matter how hard you work to stay "normal" you're body tells you otherwise. from the begining i refused to be one of those woman who used their pregnancy as an excuse to "slack off" but now i have no choice. i officially cannot do half the things i need to do... walking has become pretty much non existant. after a walk last weekend with the puppies i started having this horrible pain in my lower stomache. i'm not too worried about it i did some searching and am pretty sure he's just getting head down and putting lots of pressure on me....
i have a little over 5 weeks left... but damn its going to be a long 5 weeks. i have a total of 4 shirts that i can fit in, 1 pair of jeans and of course sweat pants. not exactly a wardrobe to make you feel good! i get exhausted getting ready for the day so my hair is in a messy bun 95% of the time.
i was going over my calendar trying to fill the days up more but everything is done now. i had my two beauitful showers and got everything (plus more!) that we needed; i am now waiting to see my materinity pictures so i can at least get some in frames; all of wesson's clothes are washed and put away; our room is fully organized and clean; my birth plan is created and ready to go; the last thing i need to do is pack my hospital bag... which i can't do quite yet obviously. there's not much else i can do to stay busy.
the books are moving... mike was number 8 last week. he'll call this afternoon to see if they moved again. he was number 7 last year when we got called to wyoming... so literally any day he could be leaving me. which is so bittersweet. he needs to get back to work for obviously financial/insurance reasons and to finish up his hours so we can be done with this whole apprenticeship but how am i going to function without him?? i already feel like a teen mom living in my parents house relying on them for so much but at least i have mike here so we can push through together. i'm terrified of where they're going to place them. i know anywhere is a just a plane ticket away but really its so scary knowing my husband won't be there from the beginning...
i guess i just need to push through the horrible random crying sessions, the millions of pee breaks, the sleepless nights, not being able to just jump up off the couch, being constanstly hungry but feeling like throwing up after each bite, and of course the wonderful but horribly painful Wesson kicks. i love them but wow he can get up in some painful positions!
i just can't wait to hold him and see his sweet face... we can't wait to meet you sweet baby Wesson.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Plan B.
things have been slightly stressful here to say the least. i am now 31 weeks tomorrow and we're still laid off. typically we wouldn't be stressing about this because its part of this apprenticeship unfortunately but prepping for a baby is a little crazy... so instead of dwelling on this fact we're trying to pick up the pieces and move to plan b. have Wesson here.
chances are mike will be back to work by April 24th but now that i'm going to the doctors every other week its just less stressful to think about changing doctors and just accept that we're here. Mike will just need to hurry his booty back once Wesson starts to make his way into the world. of course i have many mixed feelings about staying here... its been incredibly difficult not to put my nursery together, and lets face it you all are bummed too. i know you wanted to see me pull off a nursery in a trailer. well its still happening just a little later than we thought. besides Wes won't even be in his crib until around 4 months! for now little mister will be sleeping in a cradle that was i believe (correct me if i'm wrong!) was my aunt Amys than my cradle.
we've been staying busy by taking any and all baby prep classes we can find. we started our birthing class 3 weeks ago and its been really good for us. not only with the information we're learning but really connecting us together as parents. Mike cracks me up he is so into getting everything perfect when lets face it its not going to go perfect! but its sweet he's trying :) hes going to be a great daddy! i'm still doing prenatal yoga every wednesday. i know i preach about yoga a lot but i seriously cannot stress it enough... i plan on pushing all of my friends to start prenatal yoga as soon as they get pregnant even though yes i'm pushing non preggo friends into yoga now :) there are just so many benefits!
8 week challenge update: we've just finished week 5 already! and yes i'm going to brag a little here, i am very proud of myself :) so i am almost 8 months pregnant and have gained a grand total of 8 pounds! before anyone tells me i'm not being healthy and thats not good for my baby please take a second to think. obviously i would never do anything to put my baby or myself in any danger. trust me i've talked to my doctor about everything along the way. i walk every. single. day. i do yoga and lift weights daily and of course my prenatal class that is definantly a work out once a week. i eat very clean. do i give in to splurges? of course. but i don't use my pregnancy as an excuse to gorge myself and let my body go. although i've only gained a little weight i'm fully showing now and fully feeling very pregnant. Mike laughs every time we walk because i swear at least once i have to stop and really work those kegels and try to not pee my pants! thank you Wes for jumping on the bladder! My ankles are starting to feel the effects and are feeling a little weak.
Wesson is fully active now and can be found in mommy's rib! i love it though... constant reminder that our baby boy is healthy and happy. i have a feeling he's going to come our swing dancin away! :) Thank you those friends who have really stuck with us through this stressful/exciting time. your friendship means more to us than you know :)
chances are mike will be back to work by April 24th but now that i'm going to the doctors every other week its just less stressful to think about changing doctors and just accept that we're here. Mike will just need to hurry his booty back once Wesson starts to make his way into the world. of course i have many mixed feelings about staying here... its been incredibly difficult not to put my nursery together, and lets face it you all are bummed too. i know you wanted to see me pull off a nursery in a trailer. well its still happening just a little later than we thought. besides Wes won't even be in his crib until around 4 months! for now little mister will be sleeping in a cradle that was i believe (correct me if i'm wrong!) was my aunt Amys than my cradle.
we've been staying busy by taking any and all baby prep classes we can find. we started our birthing class 3 weeks ago and its been really good for us. not only with the information we're learning but really connecting us together as parents. Mike cracks me up he is so into getting everything perfect when lets face it its not going to go perfect! but its sweet he's trying :) hes going to be a great daddy! i'm still doing prenatal yoga every wednesday. i know i preach about yoga a lot but i seriously cannot stress it enough... i plan on pushing all of my friends to start prenatal yoga as soon as they get pregnant even though yes i'm pushing non preggo friends into yoga now :) there are just so many benefits!
8 week challenge update: we've just finished week 5 already! and yes i'm going to brag a little here, i am very proud of myself :) so i am almost 8 months pregnant and have gained a grand total of 8 pounds! before anyone tells me i'm not being healthy and thats not good for my baby please take a second to think. obviously i would never do anything to put my baby or myself in any danger. trust me i've talked to my doctor about everything along the way. i walk every. single. day. i do yoga and lift weights daily and of course my prenatal class that is definantly a work out once a week. i eat very clean. do i give in to splurges? of course. but i don't use my pregnancy as an excuse to gorge myself and let my body go. although i've only gained a little weight i'm fully showing now and fully feeling very pregnant. Mike laughs every time we walk because i swear at least once i have to stop and really work those kegels and try to not pee my pants! thank you Wes for jumping on the bladder! My ankles are starting to feel the effects and are feeling a little weak.
Wesson is fully active now and can be found in mommy's rib! i love it though... constant reminder that our baby boy is healthy and happy. i have a feeling he's going to come our swing dancin away! :) Thank you those friends who have really stuck with us through this stressful/exciting time. your friendship means more to us than you know :)
Monday, January 2, 2012
twenty-twelve.
2012: the year the world ends? naw the year life got a little bit more awesome.
i know everyone keeps saying "wow can't believe its 2012" well i'm going to put that on repeat and say it... HOLY COW its 2012! 2012, we've put it in everything. our emails, passwords, and even our garage code in our apartment. why? because its the year Mike is finished with the apprenticeship. yes that's right FINISHED!!
we've always known its going to be a huge, wonderful year and we're so incredibly ready to start it.
in true Cayla fashion i've created a few lists for the new year. i love resolutions and goals. typically i'm pretty great at keeping and conquering them. my last years resolutions were:
-stop texting and driving: bam! nailed that one. yes i text at stop lights but for the most part i've completely eliminated it.
-pay off student loan: we paid off the big one of the three. our original thought was i would still be working so that was a little difficult to completely finish.
-be the best friend i can be. with that said--- i'm done wasting time on friends who don't try back: alright this one is a little difficult to judge. based on my current relationships i'm about half and half :)
so for 2012:
my resolutions
-have a natural birth
-after baby arrives, be a healthy, fit mama! (i know typical right!)
-yoga. now this one is kinda a far fetched one given i'm going to have a new born here soon BUT shoot high right? i would really love to get certified as a yoga instructor for regular yoga, prenatal and baby yoga.
-i need to stop letting people get to me. i put a lot into my friendships and expect it back. i need to understand that others just don't think like me. i need to develop a thicker skin. besides i have an amazing husband, a healthy baby, a supportive family, and a few wonderful friends- why bother with people who aren't at the same point as us?
family resolutions
-stop cussing
-pay off 2nd half of loan, my ring and our four wheeler.
-get journeyman lineman's ticket by 2013
-Remmi needs to listen better ;)
so here we go.... welcome 2012. we're excited and nervous but ready! oh and by the way Happy 24 week Wesson. 6 months down!! :)
i know everyone keeps saying "wow can't believe its 2012" well i'm going to put that on repeat and say it... HOLY COW its 2012! 2012, we've put it in everything. our emails, passwords, and even our garage code in our apartment. why? because its the year Mike is finished with the apprenticeship. yes that's right FINISHED!!
we've always known its going to be a huge, wonderful year and we're so incredibly ready to start it.
in true Cayla fashion i've created a few lists for the new year. i love resolutions and goals. typically i'm pretty great at keeping and conquering them. my last years resolutions were:
-stop texting and driving: bam! nailed that one. yes i text at stop lights but for the most part i've completely eliminated it.
-pay off student loan: we paid off the big one of the three. our original thought was i would still be working so that was a little difficult to completely finish.
-be the best friend i can be. with that said--- i'm done wasting time on friends who don't try back: alright this one is a little difficult to judge. based on my current relationships i'm about half and half :)
so for 2012:
my resolutions
-have a natural birth
-after baby arrives, be a healthy, fit mama! (i know typical right!)
-yoga. now this one is kinda a far fetched one given i'm going to have a new born here soon BUT shoot high right? i would really love to get certified as a yoga instructor for regular yoga, prenatal and baby yoga.
-i need to stop letting people get to me. i put a lot into my friendships and expect it back. i need to understand that others just don't think like me. i need to develop a thicker skin. besides i have an amazing husband, a healthy baby, a supportive family, and a few wonderful friends- why bother with people who aren't at the same point as us?
family resolutions
-stop cussing
-pay off 2nd half of loan, my ring and our four wheeler.
-get journeyman lineman's ticket by 2013
-Remmi needs to listen better ;)
so here we go.... welcome 2012. we're excited and nervous but ready! oh and by the way Happy 24 week Wesson. 6 months down!! :)
Monday, October 17, 2011
Ups and Downs... No, just Ups!
i know i've been a little pathetic lately, okay kinda alot... i'd say for good reason but no really. its just been rough lately being so far away, missing out on things i was the one planning last year. plus it doesn't help my emotions are on total overdrive! ick! i've been really, really sick lately. a few dumb medical/pregnancy things that aren't a big deal but really left me feeling down. i'm finally past all that stuff and slowly starting to feel like a real person again. i've come to accept throwing up is just going to happen every day and i'll probably be that pregnant gal that is sick all the way through. yah i've thrown up on more side roads pregnant than drunk. awesome.
so let all this drag me deeper into hating life here or buck up and look around and know i am very lucky? i think we know where this is going... i thank God that i have a few very special people who haven't forgotten about me just because i moved. my mom obviously has been a HUGE help is pushing me through. i really don't know what i would do without her kinda knocking me in the head telling me hello daughter you're being a brat. stop. =) thanks ma. and of course i have some pretty awesome best friends, who i miss terribly. each who have very, very busy lives of their own. full time students, jobs, long distances relationships of their own and yet they make time for me. whether its that simple 10 mins catch up on their way home from work, those few texts on their lunch breaks, or even flowers! (miss susan, you big sweetheart!) not to mention i was able to actually have face time with miss nicole! she brought a little sunshine to wyoming with her :)
i have so much to make me smile and be thankful for...
--i have an amazing husband who works way too many hours a day but will still come home and help me spray paint another silly project i wanted to do. Or have to spend the evening skirting the trailer and wrapping heat tape to make sure i'm warm. Or randomly decided we need a date night, i can pick the movie.
--linelife is hard.... but because of this suffering now we have insurance! such a huge deal! our bills are quickly disappearing. we were able to go pick out our perfect new house uhm trailer. we know mike will always have a job, yes he gets laid off but a job always opens up. we're able to see places we would probably never have gone to, true you'll never catch me in wyoming again but still ;-)
--i'm pregnant! with all this being sick and upset i've really forgotten why i'm sick! we're having a baby... in 6 short months we'll be holding our little boy or girl. that's pretty amazing in itself. we took Rem to the park yesterday (we're lame dog parents) we were sitting on the swings talking about what kinda of parents we want to be and Mike just stopped and said how cool is it to finally have this conversation and know you're actually pregnant?! pretty cool i'd say :)
-- family! oh gosh i could sit and brag about my family to anyone.... there are ALOT of you to brag about!! i love all the relationships we have. i love when mike gets a chance to visit with his brother or when Christopher calls and we put him on speaker phone and waste an hour talking about nothing really. we really are proud of you buddy... all of my cousins! how fun is it to know our babies will be the ones playing and running around at the family reunions in a few years?!
i am happy. life is hard but hell who's life isn't?! i guess that's why we try to be there for each other. everyone needs that shoulder and helping hand some days... so thank you, dear friends for my helping hand.
so let all this drag me deeper into hating life here or buck up and look around and know i am very lucky? i think we know where this is going... i thank God that i have a few very special people who haven't forgotten about me just because i moved. my mom obviously has been a HUGE help is pushing me through. i really don't know what i would do without her kinda knocking me in the head telling me hello daughter you're being a brat. stop. =) thanks ma. and of course i have some pretty awesome best friends, who i miss terribly. each who have very, very busy lives of their own. full time students, jobs, long distances relationships of their own and yet they make time for me. whether its that simple 10 mins catch up on their way home from work, those few texts on their lunch breaks, or even flowers! (miss susan, you big sweetheart!) not to mention i was able to actually have face time with miss nicole! she brought a little sunshine to wyoming with her :)
i have so much to make me smile and be thankful for...
--i have an amazing husband who works way too many hours a day but will still come home and help me spray paint another silly project i wanted to do. Or have to spend the evening skirting the trailer and wrapping heat tape to make sure i'm warm. Or randomly decided we need a date night, i can pick the movie.
--linelife is hard.... but because of this suffering now we have insurance! such a huge deal! our bills are quickly disappearing. we were able to go pick out our perfect new house uhm trailer. we know mike will always have a job, yes he gets laid off but a job always opens up. we're able to see places we would probably never have gone to, true you'll never catch me in wyoming again but still ;-)
--i'm pregnant! with all this being sick and upset i've really forgotten why i'm sick! we're having a baby... in 6 short months we'll be holding our little boy or girl. that's pretty amazing in itself. we took Rem to the park yesterday (we're lame dog parents) we were sitting on the swings talking about what kinda of parents we want to be and Mike just stopped and said how cool is it to finally have this conversation and know you're actually pregnant?! pretty cool i'd say :)
-- family! oh gosh i could sit and brag about my family to anyone.... there are ALOT of you to brag about!! i love all the relationships we have. i love when mike gets a chance to visit with his brother or when Christopher calls and we put him on speaker phone and waste an hour talking about nothing really. we really are proud of you buddy... all of my cousins! how fun is it to know our babies will be the ones playing and running around at the family reunions in a few years?!
i am happy. life is hard but hell who's life isn't?! i guess that's why we try to be there for each other. everyone needs that shoulder and helping hand some days... so thank you, dear friends for my helping hand.
Monday, October 3, 2011
pushing through.
alright after not going to yoga for a few reasons, overwhelming sickness, missing yoga mat, and just the fact i'm a little too blue to see people today.... i finally went. although it was the wrong class it felt SO incredibly good to see familiar faces. to have one lady come up and give me a hug and ask how have you been?! thank you i needed that...
truth is i'm not all that great right now. after feeling pumped up and finally social i decided okay casper what else do you have to offer me? i headed into a few craft stores to sign up for random classes. meh so i really don't care how to make cake flowers, oh well it'll give me a schedule and maybe meet some people! Oh you have to have 5 other people to sign up? awesome well thanks lady i know NO one in this damn town. sure i'll sign up and hope others decide to take it. right.
i'm tired of feeling so alone. if i get one more rude, resentful comment from a single mom i'm going to flip out! yes i am married, yes my pregnancy was planned. do you really want me to apoligize for it?! just because i have a husband who's excited for this doesn't mean its not hard. yes i won't have to swap holidays or go to parent teacher conferences alone. but what that means i'm not aloud to be apart of groups or be friends who other moms cause they're "single?" gee thanks. honestly mike has been great but yesterday as i was gaging over the sink because hamburger struck a nerve and he thought it was funny to say Cayla, really? you're still sick? thanks yes i am! pregnancy is pregnancy. i'm going to be raising babies just like you, our kids will most likely play on the same teams, some will even share classes... so i guess when my baby comes home from school crying because some other child was picking on him. i'll give that credit back to you. learn how to have some compassion ladies. all situations are different. i plan on teaching my baby that and being a role model to it.
this lifestyle isn't easy. it is actually really hard. i am thankful that i don't have to work and get to see mike everyday but i miss home. i miss my monday night gossip girl eating whatever food we can find in my apartment. i miss random coffee dates where we'd loose track of time. i miss movie nights where we'd have more people than chairs. i miss jam runs. i miss my family. i miss my friends. some days i really miss that life but this is my life now. i love it most days and those few rough days are when i need family and friends the most. i can't wait for the day i get to announce we're coming home! until than i'll be here supporting my husband in his journey and right now that's my most important job and i'm proud of it.
truth is i'm not all that great right now. after feeling pumped up and finally social i decided okay casper what else do you have to offer me? i headed into a few craft stores to sign up for random classes. meh so i really don't care how to make cake flowers, oh well it'll give me a schedule and maybe meet some people! Oh you have to have 5 other people to sign up? awesome well thanks lady i know NO one in this damn town. sure i'll sign up and hope others decide to take it. right.
i'm tired of feeling so alone. if i get one more rude, resentful comment from a single mom i'm going to flip out! yes i am married, yes my pregnancy was planned. do you really want me to apoligize for it?! just because i have a husband who's excited for this doesn't mean its not hard. yes i won't have to swap holidays or go to parent teacher conferences alone. but what that means i'm not aloud to be apart of groups or be friends who other moms cause they're "single?" gee thanks. honestly mike has been great but yesterday as i was gaging over the sink because hamburger struck a nerve and he thought it was funny to say Cayla, really? you're still sick? thanks yes i am! pregnancy is pregnancy. i'm going to be raising babies just like you, our kids will most likely play on the same teams, some will even share classes... so i guess when my baby comes home from school crying because some other child was picking on him. i'll give that credit back to you. learn how to have some compassion ladies. all situations are different. i plan on teaching my baby that and being a role model to it.
this lifestyle isn't easy. it is actually really hard. i am thankful that i don't have to work and get to see mike everyday but i miss home. i miss my monday night gossip girl eating whatever food we can find in my apartment. i miss random coffee dates where we'd loose track of time. i miss movie nights where we'd have more people than chairs. i miss jam runs. i miss my family. i miss my friends. some days i really miss that life but this is my life now. i love it most days and those few rough days are when i need family and friends the most. i can't wait for the day i get to announce we're coming home! until than i'll be here supporting my husband in his journey and right now that's my most important job and i'm proud of it.
Monday, September 19, 2011
these are a few of my favorite things...
--sunday morning walks with my boys, discussing what our baby will look like, sports they'll play, that property we want back home, that dream house we'll one day have, and of course that time in our life where we'll sit on our front porch on our rockers discussing how cold that winter in wyoming was ;-)
--daily talks with mom. you think i can talk? have a chat with that woman
--baking.
--farmers markets. picking out my favorite fresh fruits? count me in.
--great yoga sessions. the ones where you walk away feeling like youre a pretzel
--snuggling in bed watching Grease, even though he hates it and than catching him singing along with my Grease cd on our next road trip
--cooking dinner and being told its his new favorite food
--paying bills. i love seeing debt go down and savings go up.
--going on junk food trips. grabbing kit kats, skittles, popcorn, caramel popcorn, cookies and pigging out on all it.
--texts from best friends saying i love you. those mean more than you'll ever know.
--learning a new crochet pattern and actually accomplishing it.
--getting a "reminder" that my first doctor appointment is in a week, shows that others are just as excited for us.
--going on drives in the truck playing our favorite old songs
--decorating for fall
--huckleberry competitions with dad, even though he always picks more than me
--changing the scentsy smell
--taking long baths... this is the only reason i drive 9 hours to go to class =)
--pintrest.com okay this is my new favorite pass time. pictures and planning, its great.
--new pair of boots. cowgirl boots go with everything.
--daily talks with mom. you think i can talk? have a chat with that woman
--baking.
--farmers markets. picking out my favorite fresh fruits? count me in.
--great yoga sessions. the ones where you walk away feeling like youre a pretzel
--snuggling in bed watching Grease, even though he hates it and than catching him singing along with my Grease cd on our next road trip
--cooking dinner and being told its his new favorite food
--paying bills. i love seeing debt go down and savings go up.
--going on junk food trips. grabbing kit kats, skittles, popcorn, caramel popcorn, cookies and pigging out on all it.
--texts from best friends saying i love you. those mean more than you'll ever know.
--learning a new crochet pattern and actually accomplishing it.
--getting a "reminder" that my first doctor appointment is in a week, shows that others are just as excited for us.
--going on drives in the truck playing our favorite old songs
--decorating for fall
--huckleberry competitions with dad, even though he always picks more than me
--changing the scentsy smell
--taking long baths... this is the only reason i drive 9 hours to go to class =)
--pintrest.com okay this is my new favorite pass time. pictures and planning, its great.
--new pair of boots. cowgirl boots go with everything.
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