how many month til i own a bathtub?!

yes this is a pity post. i'm not expecting pity or snide comments because i do know i am very blessed and i am so thankful for a hard working husband who allows me to stay home with wes but damn it this is getting really hard. i know this is the same story you've already heard but life is like that... happy times, rough times, repeat. just most people don't chose to broadcast it all over the Internet for everyone to read but hell thats just me. most days i don't know why i share my dirty laundry but i want to share my story so this comes with it.

linelife is hard, each part of it... my ladies each deal with a different part.

traveling alone. you moved with him whether you're in a trailer or house. you picked up your life and went and didn't think twice but now you spend your days waiting for your husband to come home only to see he's exhausted. so he showers, eat and goes to bed.

watching him pack up and leave for storm or work out of town/state... going weeks or months without seeing him. being left behind is horrible. yes you most likely have family/friends around but no one can fill that space.

you may be a lucky one who lives in your home city, see your lineman every night, he may work for a utility but the call outs start coming. it may be ten minutes after he's walked in the door, on the weekend after you've made plan, on holidays, birthdays and he has to leave at the drop of a hat... or fallen powerline ;)

or you're in my stage... tramping around, living in a trailer, with a baby (or older kids!) i have multiple linewife pals who are homeschooling their children to keep their family together. i have so much respect for those women. i know things could be tougher... i do get to see my husband every night but i feel like all i'm doing is waiting for sunday to roll around. one day of the week to actually be a family and spend time together. except of course once a month i loose that sunday because he leaves for class weekend 2 hours away. i used to love class weekends... i got to spend a night in a hotel with a bathtub!

i guess that's what really set me off these last few days... a damn tub! i know so simple and so dumb, most people only shower! you people don't know what you're missing! trying to shave your legs in a 4x4 box takes serious balance. don't get me started on the lack of water pressure. i could get the soap out faster with the hose out back. plus by the time dishes from dinner are done, mikes already showered, and after i've given wes a bath yah you bet your ass that hot water tank is empty.

set off number 2: lack of a washer & dryer. holy. shit. i tried going to a laundry mat two weekend ago and wow bad idea. it takes like 3 hours to get everything done. wes was over it. i was over it. i now found a service that i can take my laundry to, they wash, dry and FOLD it for me! magical. except finding time to haul our clothes, work clothes, sheets/towels, and wesson's pile of clothes is nearly impossible let alone going to pick it back up. its exhausting. laundry shouldn't be that big a deal.

break down reason number 3: my sweet baby. he's not napping. like i'm happy if he takes a 20 min nap twice a day. thank God he still sleeps through the night or i'd really loose it. i feel like working out is the only thing i can control right now so waking up at 5 am is a must since like an alarm wes will be up at 6 am. plus he's doing this really horrible screeching thing. like fills his lungs up and screeches as loud of his little body allows. he isn't upset its just like he's found his voice. its horrible. like really really horrible.

shitty things number 4 & 5: my computer crapped out on me. it was a trusty little guy but it was time to order a new computer. i bought another cheaper computer (i use this word lightly because it still  cost a grand all said and done) and of course the same day my cars tires needed to be replaced. i guess 4 states in a year did it in pretty quick. ick. but silver lining here we were able to pay cash for it all on top of paying off my loan last week!

and lastly number 6: we have to buy multiple gallons of water for bottles and drinking water. yes you can drink the water from the trailer but you wouldn't want to. it tastes funky. so i ran out of waters.... so i had to boil water for bottles. talk about old fashion. i had to wait for mike to get jugs... trying to balance a baby and multiple gallons is damn near impossible.

well that's about it. i will hopefully be soaking in a bathtub this time next year, reading this and laughing about how pathetic i was... but than start crying because hey thats what i do when shit gets hard.

so if you're reading this... thank a lineman for your power but please say a silent pray for the wife/finance/girlfriend who is standing behind him because hey we deserve a little high five too....

Doggie Dash 2012

As most of you saw on facebook I signed Remmi and myself up for the doggie dash! nothing like being in Bozeman for a month and getting involved with the community! yay!

the doggie dash was an event that benefitted the local animal shelther... there was a mile race, a peanut butter eating contest, musical "doggie lay down", tons of raffle prizes and vendors set up.... there were also a ton of doggie pools for the pups to cool off in... needless to say remmi got a few laughs when he decided to just lay down and camp out in one the pools after the race.

i really wanted to do this race before signing remmi and myself up for a 5k.... i wasn't sure how he'd handle running next to a bunch of other people and their dogs. he did surprisingly great! of course starting off was a tad overwhelming for the both of us but once it spread out it went so fast! i figure i walk about 2 miles each day with rem and wes so running one mile was seriously so much easier than i thought! my time was 8.36... my time would have been much faster but my dear pooch had to poop not once but twice! so picking it up and running with it was a pain.

mike did the contests with remmi and he didn't win, or even come close but it was sure funny to watch! we met a lot of fellow dog lovers and i'm hoping we can go to their next local event... canine 5k in october... its on a saturday so we're not sure if it'll work out but mike said he has no issue taking a day off. honestly its me who's feels bad! but we'll see how it goes :)

side note: there was the sweetest 3 week old britney puppy!! is it possible to have puppy fever!? i think yes!

here's our pictures from the doggie dash! enjoy! :) i'm off to enjoy some yummy pumpkin lineman pancakes (our own mix of yummiest thats so easy to make even a lineman could make... haha) and enjoy some quiet while my babies are finally sleeping! yay! happy sunday!!

here comes fall!

i know most people always view new years the time for change but i've always felt fall was the best time to make some changes in life... its perfect the leaves are all falling off the trees i've always felt like seeing that was giving the chance to make things clean again. strip down all the bad stuff and learn to be just you and than given the time start to build up again. i'm sure i sound like a crazy person right now but thats fine. i'm posting this for me :) i'm not making any crazy changes just getting back to the basics! letting stresses go...

life is slowly settling down again. we're moving to our new park on saturday and the people i've met already are wonderful. so sweet and caring (of course they love wesson already!) i found a yoga class i'm starting next week thursday. i'm scared to give up one of my evenings with my boys but i know i'm a much happier/relaxed mama when i'm in yoga.... plus all this running has really taking a toll on my hips! i am finally ready to run my first 5k!! i have one i want to run on the 15th... i know i'm not done with the C25K but i thought i'd give it a shot. only issue is of course Mike might have class that weekend so i'm waiting to see. but i am for sure running one on October 6th. "its not over until the fit lady sings!" lol its a run to kick off Bozeman's opera fest! i'm also starting another 8 week challenge this sunday. although i've stayed faithful to my running, my eating and videos have disappeared and i'm slowly watching the numbers climb... if anyone else is interested in joining please let me know and i'll add you to the private group!

i guess over the last month i've really lost focus on the type of woman i want to be. sure i know my "titles" wife, mother, daughter, friend, dog owner... but i'm barely touching the surfaces! we've been so focuesd on go go go and moving. mike is going to be taking his journeyman test in a few months and i need to be more supportive and help study more... i've been putting note cards with questions in his lunch every day but mentally i don't feel like i'm being as supportive as i should be. this is our life! wesson is starting to eat real foods now... yay! i'm so excited to get a grasp on this baby food making business. i feel a little scattered but i'm going to the farmers market tonight and hopefully get some fresh veggies!

as far as friendships go...over the last month i've taking the time to slowly let go of some friendships. its hurts to know that some people just don't want to be supportive and understanding when life is changing so much. i wish them the best i really do. i'll miss the old friendship we used to have and who knows if one day we'll have more in common and be able to move forward again but for now i've taken to removing those people after pointlessly trying to explain how i felt. once i stopped wondering what happened and let it all go i'm amazed at the other friendships that have popped up.
i've slowly been strengthening other relationships... its so nice to have conversations about whats going on and people be genuinely happy and interested. i've really connected with some fabulous ladies who are always linewives. SO nice to be able to vent about this crazy job! i'm in the process of finding a mommy group just to have some actual facetime convos... this will probably save my husband hours of my pointless rambling and possible save him from jean shopping with me. hah.

there's just something so comforting in settling into a new/old routine again. realizing what you want, how you want to feel and making that happen. taking the time to really appreciate what you have around you and sharing that good feeling with others. happy autumn friends! :)

Peace: it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart. <3

Labor Day Weekend

Today is my 23rd birthday! crazy right? when did we start heading into the mid 20s?! growing up the age 23 was always the age i had in my head that was the age you should semi have shit figured out... little did i know you never actually figure anything out. i can say though i am extremely happy with how my 23 years have turned out...
-i'm married to my very best friend
-i have the most adorable 4 month old son who has loved playing in the pool and sharing peaches with mama
-i have a very crazy puppy who is slowly settling down finally
-our families are so wonderful and supportive with all the constant last minute changes
-our friends (new&old) are so great at making time for us on our short visits home

yes i'd say my life is exactly where i would want... of course the a house without wheels would be a little better but we're doing things most people would never have the opportunity to do! and now that we're only a short 5 hour drive from home it takes a lot of pressure of planning trips off me. it was so easy to have both of our parents load up their campers and come visit!

mike's parents, brother, and grandparents got into bozeman friday afternoon and my parents got into town sunday morning. it was a really relaxing weekend visiting, eating too much, drinking too much and of course watching wesson get passed around :)

we're moving again this weekend to a more permanent spot 10 miles up the road. i'm so excited to not think about moving for a few weeks.... its been really exhausting on all of us! thank you all for the birthday love :) i'm celebrating by swimming with my little buddy later and frozen yogurt and a redbox (my choice!!) tonight once mike gets home!

hope everyone had a fun/relaxing long weekend... here's our pictures from our fun weekend :)

 mike was SO proud of his cooler corn... which he found on pintrest ;)

 

 making huckleberry icecream!