yes this is a pity post. i'm not expecting pity or snide comments because i do know i am very blessed and i am so thankful for a hard working husband who allows me to stay home with wes but damn it this is getting really hard. i know this is the same story you've already heard but life is like that... happy times, rough times, repeat. just most people don't chose to broadcast it all over the Internet for everyone to read but hell thats just me. most days i don't know why i share my dirty laundry but i want to share my story so this comes with it.
linelife is hard, each part of it... my ladies each deal with a different part.
traveling alone. you moved with him whether you're in a trailer or house. you picked up your life and went and didn't think twice but now you spend your days waiting for your husband to come home only to see he's exhausted. so he showers, eat and goes to bed.
watching him pack up and leave for storm or work out of town/state... going weeks or months without seeing him. being left behind is horrible. yes you most likely have family/friends around but no one can fill that space.
you may be a lucky one who lives in your home city, see your lineman every night, he may work for a utility but the call outs start coming. it may be ten minutes after he's walked in the door, on the weekend after you've made plan, on holidays, birthdays and he has to leave at the drop of a hat... or fallen powerline ;)
or you're in my stage... tramping around, living in a trailer, with a baby (or older kids!) i have multiple linewife pals who are homeschooling their children to keep their family together. i have so much respect for those women. i know things could be tougher... i do get to see my husband every night but i feel like all i'm doing is waiting for sunday to roll around. one day of the week to actually be a family and spend time together. except of course once a month i loose that sunday because he leaves for class weekend 2 hours away. i used to love class weekends... i got to spend a night in a hotel with a bathtub!
i guess that's what really set me off these last few days... a damn tub! i know so simple and so dumb, most people only shower! you people don't know what you're missing! trying to shave your legs in a 4x4 box takes serious balance. don't get me started on the lack of water pressure. i could get the soap out faster with the hose out back. plus by the time dishes from dinner are done, mikes already showered, and after i've given wes a bath yah you bet your ass that hot water tank is empty.
set off number 2: lack of a washer & dryer. holy. shit. i tried going to a laundry mat two weekend ago and wow bad idea. it takes like 3 hours to get everything done. wes was over it. i was over it. i now found a service that i can take my laundry to, they wash, dry and FOLD it for me! magical. except finding time to haul our clothes, work clothes, sheets/towels, and wesson's pile of clothes is nearly impossible let alone going to pick it back up. its exhausting. laundry shouldn't be that big a deal.
break down reason number 3: my sweet baby. he's not napping. like i'm happy if he takes a 20 min nap twice a day. thank God he still sleeps through the night or i'd really loose it. i feel like working out is the only thing i can control right now so waking up at 5 am is a must since like an alarm wes will be up at 6 am. plus he's doing this really horrible screeching thing. like fills his lungs up and screeches as loud of his little body allows. he isn't upset its just like he's found his voice. its horrible. like really really horrible.
shitty things number 4 & 5: my computer crapped out on me. it was a trusty little guy but it was time to order a new computer. i bought another cheaper computer (i use this word lightly because it still cost a grand all said and done) and of course the same day my cars tires needed to be replaced. i guess 4 states in a year did it in pretty quick. ick. but silver lining here we were able to pay cash for it all on top of paying off my loan last week!
and lastly number 6: we have to buy multiple gallons of water for bottles and drinking water. yes you can drink the water from the trailer but you wouldn't want to. it tastes funky. so i ran out of waters.... so i had to boil water for bottles. talk about old fashion. i had to wait for mike to get jugs... trying to balance a baby and multiple gallons is damn near impossible.
well that's about it. i will hopefully be soaking in a bathtub this time next year, reading this and laughing about how pathetic i was... but than start crying because hey thats what i do when shit gets hard.
so if you're reading this... thank a lineman for your power but please say a silent pray for the wife/finance/girlfriend who is standing behind him because hey we deserve a little high five too....
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