2nd chances.

i cannot believe tomorrow Wesson will be two months old... its scary, exciting, and so rewarding...

my son is a huge part of my life, obviously. i love every minute we spend together. our early morning smiles, morning baths (which i have to refill the water typically twice because i can't bear to break his smile and take him out yet...) our baby yoga in the afternoons, and one of my favorites saying our night time prayers. i'm very, very lucky i get to do this things. i have a husband who provides for us. its crazy to think i will never have to work if i don't want to. i get to watch my babies grow daily. trust me i do not take this for granted.

 i'm blessed, not just oh yah i'm having a good day blessed. i'm truely blessed with my life. i went through some horrible times with my husband. looking back now i'd like to smack my 21 year old retard self for almost loosing the man i get to share these memories with. we're typical parents now. our conversations revolve around Wes. this is exactly how i've pictured my life. well minus the trailer and colorado part. we are constantly planning our evenings and weekends for what we want to do and what time so we can beat the heat. i love our evenings now. after wesson goes down for the night he cracks a beer i grab my wine and we sit and play cards for hours and chat about days... i don't think i ever want cable again! okay thats a lie... we rent lots of movies too ha.

its hard getting married and having a baby before your friends.... but i chose this route i wanted this... it stings a little to know i really am loosing connections with my girlfriends. my life is one baby time, not happy hour. that's okay though. i'm excited for the day they call me up asking for advice on diapers or to call and share the exciting news of their baby laughing, or rolling over for the first time.... maybe than they'll understand why i was so excited to share my news and disappointed at their nonchallent reaction.

yes this is where i belong though.. getting up before everyone else to get my run in, my half hour spent running with Rem thanking God for giving me my second chance at this life. coming back to snuggle with my husband before either his alarm goes off or my handsome boy wakes up. one of my most treasured hours-- after mike gets off to work, rem and wes sleeping, coffee in hand enjoying a little quiet before taking on those sweet smiles. yes, happy and blessed... i'll take it.

Broken Hand=Family Time

i'm not saying i wished for mike to break his hand but i'm not complaining about getting to see his cute face before 9 pm now. he got his cast put on yesterday and go figure it is bright ass hunter orange. he goes back in on July 10th to hopefully get the cast removed or they'll put a soft cast on again. so until he is all healed my lineman is put on light duty 4 10s :) he's obviously a little pissed but hey he's still working and he gets to see us a little more! my first thought was yes camping! but because Colorado is going up in flames an hour north we're put on a no fire ban shoot.

we finally had a nice weekend together. made up for my first rough weeks here... Saturday we dropped Rem off at doggy day care and went into Denver to the aquarium. we figured Wesson would sleep the whole time but even better he was wide awake and loving it! we held him most the time and he would just stare at all the fish. it was so precious! at lunch we sat in front of the huge tank and he just laid back and watched. he was the perfect baby!

big ass ugly fish... go figure this is the only fish picture i took!

Sunday was Mike's first fathers day :) so we packed up our boys and drove an hour to Evergreen Lake. we picked this hike because we wanted to take the stroller and needed a shorter hike. it was beautiful if we could move closer to this area we could in a heart beat! Evergreen Lake was so pretty and the path was perfect for a stroller, most of the way... about half way we came to stairs going down and than back up the other side. obviously not the best for a stroller so we went to turn around and retrace our steps when a mama elk and her baby decided they wanted to use the path. ugh... so either wait it out or try the stairs. being adventurous we chose stairs. great plan for my one armed husband. but we made it down and up safely thankfully! :)

 Evergreen Lake, CO

Path from above the stairs

Not sure of our plans this weekend. mike has class in Denver saturday so we might try to find another sunday hike... this time we'll be using our sweet back pack Nicole and Patty got us!!




what we know

-i'm going to have good days and reeeally hard/bad days but i'm strong

-mike can give up junk food and eat healthy with me, who knew! although i had to find a "healthy" cookie recipe for him. oatmeal cookies = 46 cal

-itsy bitsy yoga makes me feel like a total goober but i love it... "iiiiinnnnn, ouuuuut good happy baby!" ha just roll with it

-i've managed to get back to my pre baby weight and i've lost 4 pounds. i am extremly proud of my hard work although this whole flabby tummy, uterus contracting bullshit sucks i'm sticking with it and will hit my goal

-i have probably the worlds best baby. he created his own schedule and is sticking to it

-every mother who has ever said time is going to fly was right. i'm amazed daily at how much wesson is changing and growing... he is the sweetest little boy already.

-mike is working a lot. like 76 hours the last week a lot. its hard for me but harder on him... he finally got to hold his baby this morning. this is the reason i'm here... he may not get to hold him daily but he gets to see him and kiss him good night every single night. worth the long, lonely days for me.

-i have the best friend. Brandy's daily encouraging texts and talks are helping me through. Brandy you're the best ever.

-unlimitated free mobile to mobile calling is the best invention ever. i talk to mom on average 3 times a day.... i love it. i'm so glad she doesn't have a "normal" job these chats push me through rough times

-colorado storms are simply amazing...we've had tornado warnings, high wind warnings, fire warnings and now i'm listening to the thunder roll in while its still 92 degrees out. beautiful.

-i'm married to an incredible man who despite his long hours still manages to rub my back before bed, run spaz dog at 4am so mornings go smoothly for me, fixed my stroller tires after my off roading stunt, and he does it all without one complaint. also guess who's turning the big 2-3 in two weeks...his one request for out for burger, fries, and a beer... go figure! but he said he wants a small icecream cake so we can quickly get back on track. oh i love him.

-i can navigate myself in the truck to the super target, vs, bass pro, and walmart without my navigator now! i suck at city driving though...

-moms who said i'd loose sleep havent met my son... hes going on 9 days of 8 hours solid sleep. simply wonderful.

-i am extremly thankful & blessed i get to be a full time mom. i couldnt imagine sharing these smiles

-i have a frustrating puppy that i cant get rid of

-ive mastered pushing a stroller & walking said frustrating puppy through sandy paths... whew now thats a workout!

-life is so precious. my heart aches for my friend katie who had to say good bye to her sweet 6 month old baby girl. please include them in your prayers tonight....<3

i'm surviving... kinda.

who would ever think i'd be typing that i miss wyoming?! its weird but i do. i knew where things were and everything was bunched together in ONE area... not spread out in an hour radius. Yes Denver has SO much to offer but i have two problems. one: its huge and i get lost  and two: its basically takes a day trip to go into Denver and will a almost 6 week old thats kinda of difficult. i'm learning but man its been a rough week.

i caught my parents cold when i left idaho, not the best thing but okay i can handle a cough and a sneeze. never did i dream my sweet baby would catch it! he's okay but seeing him cough and sneeze is hard to watch. i had an over protective mom moment and found a pediatrician right down the road. of course they told him he's fine and there's nothing really i can do except try to comfort him. --side note he weights 9.5 lbs now!! growing boy!!-- this cold has really thrown our wonderful sleeping schedule for a loop... for 4 days Wesson didn't sleep at all in the afternoon and would just cry. i felt so helpless but also i was starting to want to pull my hair out.

i think he's starting to feel a little better now. yesterday he had little crying fits but i was able to finally calm him down and he got some sleep in the afternoon. and last night he slept 9 hours straight!! must be catching up on sleep loss :) but of course Remmi escaped yesterday, not only once but twice!! luckily that dog loves string cheese and i got him home. if its not one baby its another!

its all a lot harder and more overwhelming that i imagined. it doesn't help mike is working SO much! last week he worked 6 12s and last night he informed me he's now going to 7 12s... no day off for this mama. its hard being alone so much right now but i just have to keep thinking the more hours = faster this apprenticeship can go. plus our savings is already building up and we should have a down payment before we know it! have to focus on positives right now!

well there ya go, i'm semi surviving for now. it can really only get better as time goes on and we find our groove here in Brighton!

My Granola Lifestyle

My Granola Lifestyle.

i've always had an intrest in having a "clean and simple" lifestyle- eating fresh foods, home cooked meals, and just really having that good balance to fit it all in. its not that i haven't had time i just haven't made time to really figure out how to make that work for me. so i decided since having wesson i really want to make some changes in the way we live. now i'm not talking about saving the world, boycotting major stores, and stop shaving or anything that drastic. just simple things to try to cut out some chemicals and eat fresh homegrown foods.

i probably won't be posting on fb everytime i try something out mainly because i know 95% of you don't really care what we eat but i know my mama does ;) buuut i like to keep record of things to look back on... i chose the name granola lifestyle because when i first started really getting into yoga my parents and brother kept calling me a granola and hippie. i love that yoga comes with such stigma hah.

i hope this helps anyone who's looking to make small steps into a more simple lifestyle and if anyone has suggestions i'd love to hear em.

I'm just a simple guy, I live from day to day. A ray of sunshine melts my frown and blows my blues away. ~Led Zeppelin

Trailer Nursery

I have waited so long to decorate my trailer nursery and its still hard to believe its not only finished but i have my sweet baby sleeping in the crib! so wonderful :) but first how our trip went...

it was quite the trip lemme tell ya but we laughed a lot and somehow made it... the trip started thursday morning a little rocky. if its not hard enough leaving the house with a newborn trying leaving the house and moving with a newborn and a puppy! ouch, yes i'm an idiot. since as most of you know my dear puppy is VERY active so i asked the vet for doggie downers. well oakley somehow managed to lick up a little piece that fell out of Remmis mouth that's my guess anyways. thankfully Nicole came over and kept an eye on my parents drugged puppy while mom and i attempted to get on the road.

after giving remmi another doggy downer, mom exploding white cheddar popcorn ALL over my car, having to nurse in the middle of no where and burger king, one night in a sketch motel we finally made it. yah, we were both over the trip before we even left Idaho but it was a memory we won't forget :)

i'll admit i've been very spoiled living with mom, if i couldn't get wes to burp she was right there. when i needed to go shower or make lunch and wes just wanted to be held mom was on it. i'm very thankful for the time i got to spent with my parents... guess it all worked out perfectly. after all the crazy paths my life has taken so far i really should have better faith!

today has been the first day i've been totally alone with wes and rem. mike had to get up at 4:30 to take spaz dog for a walk to give me a little more time in the mornings before i have to brave a walk with him and the stroller... its weird being alone though. good thing i speak baby and puppy ;-)

sorry its kind of a boring update, i'll try to update in a week and let you know if i'm surviving or if i bought a ticket to take me back home.

now here's our trailer nursery! i know everything is crammed but i'm pretty proud of the way everything's turned out. especially our project we did last year... the tool holder that mike took down and spray painted. it holds wesson's stuff perfectly! :) i never thought i'd have wes sleeping in his crib already but i think he loves it... he slept 8 hours straight last night in it! and also on his tummy! yes i got up oh 3 or 4 times to make sure he was still okay!

Brighton, Colorado.

Nervous. Excited. Anxious. Ready.

Brighton, Colorado here we come... we got the call a week and a half ago. Mike packed up and left within 24 hours. ouch. we knew it was coming so i can't say it was a shock but still moving that fast is always hard. Its been a rough two weeks for Mike not seeing Wesson although i've sent A TON of pictures and videos, he is going to be shocked when he gets to hold his almost 9 pound boy! Brighton is a smaller town right outside of Denver (like hayden to cda) i couldn't be more excited to be that close to denver... i've found SO many mommy groups, puppy groups, yoga studios, shopping centers and activities to keep us plenty busy. Mike is most like working 6 12s which will be hard to not see him but more hours = getting finished faster! our sundays will be filled with lots of day trips :)

mom will be driving the 17 hour drive with me, wesson, remmi and this dumb little plant i think our family needs. we'll be leaving thursday morning and she'll fly home sunday night. i am nervous for the big drive but SO incredibly thankful for her help and company. its going to be an adventure!!

Wesson Update:
i knew i was going to love being a mom but didn't know just how much i would love that little boy... i feel like i get plenty of sleep every night. anywhere from 4 to 7 hours :) we've ventured out quite a bit too... he's already a regular at caddy shack! he's such a little sweetie... one of my favorite things right now is bath time. i swear he would live in the water! he gets so excited when he hears the water and gets a big grin, showing off his dimple, when he gets to get in the water and "swim" :) love it.

wish us good luck on the drive and i'll be sure to take lots of pictures along the way :) xoxo