christmas break thus far.

i figured i have a free moment that hasn't been over taken by people in and out of the house and the million things that have to get done while mike's home....

the break is has been great. christmas was wonderful we stayed at my parents and got treated like ten year olds :) the next day we were suppose to go to st maries to see mikes mom but the roads weren't gonna let us.... we got into our first accident. it was soooo scary! mike was driving super slow but it still slide us around and smack right into the cement rails. the damage for what happpened is amazing. just the front bumper in torn up but that we can live with. we were both VERY shaken up, unharmed except for my knee hitting the door. its just swollen and bruised but i'll take it.

so today is filled with insurance calls and estimates. yay. the one shitty thing about mike being home for longer than a weekend we actually start to feel like a real husband and wife so we decide to bring up issues like whats going to happen and of course it turns into a huge fight we i seriously want to smack him across the face and of course he thinks he's just going to storm out of here. we could fight on repeat i swear! i love him to death and wouldn't change anything but i think someone is using us for their amusement because we can't fix anything. lol its just dumb... than we try to talk it out sleep on it and everythings fine.... i'm not sure its the healthiest way but for now we both always say its not going to help anything to fight about the future.

sometimes i just really hate being a linewife and the damn unknown.

.Hope.

its been an exhausting weekend.

mom and i headed to tri cities on friday to see the family and be there to support my grandma who was putting on an advent breakfast saturday morning at her church. i didn't know until we got there but she was one of the key speakers. she would be speakin on hope. some of you have met my family and the one thing i always hear is wow your family treats any and everyone like they are your own blood and have known me for years. its true. my grandparents have adopted many more granddaughters and sons than you can imagine. i guess the reason i'm adding this little back ground in my blog is to show where i get my strength from... the woman in my family are the heart and soul. each of them has taught me more and more throughout their experiences and stories. i won't go into their stories because just that their not mine to share. anyways so i've mentioned 2 years ago we lost Luke... to back up a little before that my grandparents after 48 years divorced. it was terrible. we were all so lost. they were apart for 2ish years than decided to remarry and i know its a little crazy but the wedding was amazing. every. single. person. was there. my grandparents have 7 kids. 28 grandkids. 16 great grandkids (this number ALWAYS growing!) so to gather everyone was truely wonderful. little did we know 2 weeks later we would loose Luke. To see my family come together in that time still brings me to my knees. we were there for each other. I believe God brought my grandparents back together to help us all get through.... well my grandma spoke of all this and more rough times my family has gone through and the hope we each carried with us. I found some things out friday night that unfortunatly still leaves me sick... it was one of those stories you didn't want to hear... one of those thoughts that no matter what you cannot get out of your head. but i guess i just need to hold my head and hold on to that hope a little more...

my heart is in.... MONTANA!

holy shit. i never thought we would get that phone call. i picked mike up from the airport and we hadn't even reached the free way when mtn states called and said he got the transfer to montana. i cried. like pulled over and cried. it was such a relief. no one can imagine how difficult it is to start a marriage 27 plus hours away. its just dumb. now we've cut the gap but 22 hours and mike is now working in fairfield. its about 40 minutes from great falls and 5 hours from home. thank you Lord! i knew sticking to our guns and waiting it out would be worth it instead of being rediculous and packing up our life here and following him. i didn't give my dreams and goals up so now we're sitting pretty. pretty damn freakin pretty! :) i'm half way done with my intern. ready to job hunt here soon. and with mike being closer that kinda ups our plans to a little sooner. once i get my job i'm going to be crackin down on the house hunt and we should be home owners this spring. and i won't be doing the house hunting alone. mike can come home every single stinkin weekend. i can actually start trying our some of these dinners i've been slaving over. ha... best early christmas present! :-)

this would be my life....

have you ever at any given moment of the day just took one second was said wow this is my life. how cool is this?! it happens to me all the time from various emotions.... my morning texts from mike at 3 in the morning saying to myself. wow my husband lives somewhere else? or a random text from a friend just saying thinkin of you today! anyways mine poped up today as i was busy sealing a crown in this womans mouth. it was such a challenge to keep her from chatting on about her heard of 26 alpacas! she inherited this pack from here ex father in law. very crazy story but in between telling her to hang on it hit me. this is my career! this is pretty much what i'm going to be doing every day. listening to people's stories while helping them out. i love it. its been such a joy working in this office too. they all say they want to keep me but i know they don't have the room so in about 5 weeks i will be on the search to find a dental asst. position elsewhere. its a bittersweet thought....

on the other hand. i have been keeping busy meeting up with all the rowdy buncha people i call my friends! Mike comes home on wednesday and i couldn't be more ready to see his handsome face! :-) we're going to ritzville for thanksgiving which i honeslty dont mind not being with my family during a holiday. Mikes family has always been great in opening their arms and making me feel right at home. all in all i am looking forward to some good quality time with everyone. i'm sure well make it to st maries to see mikes mom and grandpa. which is always just so easy! she adores michael (i know who doesn't!?) but its really sweet... plus she always wants to hear me ramble about my boring old life. she will probably ask us every hour when we plan on giving her some grandbabies! she's up there with the wanting to be a grandma BAD along side my ma! :) love it.

off to yoga! :)

who knew a normal job would be this exhausting?!

whew okay i'm a little behind on my update... first off my trip to denver was wonderful. we went did a few random things like accidently find buffalo bills grave site and spend an hour and a half looking through cheapo survinors trying to pick something out... we went to the coors factory too and took some very serious beer pictures. but of course none of us so its pointless trying to upload. ha we had a blast and i always love the time we spend together. when i first landed we were both so exhausted we went and grabbed food and headed to the hotel. we spend 6 solid hours just talking.... it was amazing... we talk every day yes but its hard to actually talk about the important details of things. so we officially have things set and will let you all know the details when they come up :-) lets just say i was very happy at the end.

now the part of my life that has taken over! my extern! holy cow i figured monday thru thursday 8 to 5 no big i will have so much time on my hands... eeerrr wrong. i'm plan exhausted at the end of the day! i haven't even seen my mom this whole week which never ever happens. i am very thankful i don't have to work while doing this because i would be a total wreck!!

i love the office though i could not have picked a better place... i went out to grab a beer and fried food with some of the girls last night. lets be honest they're my kind of people! i spend more time with these woman than anyone else and am so blessed to have formed such a solid bond with them. they told me they want to keep me! i don't know yet about any actually employment but i'm not ruleing it out. i've been able to assist in a few things nothing too extreme but i did get my first extraction which was awesome! anyways literally being a dental asst. right now is completly my life. its hard throughout the week but once the weekend hits i'm definanly able to cut loose and just relax (no homework!!) this weekend hopefully i will be able to jam on down to moscow with miss sam for some football! yay! only if i get my stupid car taken car of! needless to say i will not be sleeping in tomorrow! things need to be done early... welcome to adulthood. bleh! :)

countdowns make my life.

first count down: one hour and 15 minutes until my dear friends sam, ashley and of course jocey come watch gossip girl :-) decorated halloween cookies included hoorah.

second: 2 and a half days until i'm boarding a flight to denver to see that handsome lineman of mine. some things we have planned are "the scariest haunted house ever"(mike and jake did their research), coyote ugly (love being 21), bass pro shop (basically my favorite place), coors factory (nothing like warm, free beer!) possibly a halloween party with a good friend from t.f. (he goes to school in boulder now) and of course laying in bed with my sweet husband for the whole day of thursday. i can't wait...

third: exactly one week left of school! i did my first polishing today on a med student and rocked it! i love my future career.

fourth: goes along with end of school, i start my extern a week from tomorrow!! now this is a huge scary step that i cannot wait to take. this is what its all been leading up to. eeeekkkk. so nervous but i know my stuff so i should be alright ;)

fifth: less than one month until mike gets to come back into town for thanksgiving!! we just booked our ticket. i'm already starting to plan our annual (well its only the second year but still...) ornament party/ black friday/kick off christmas party! any ideas for a clever name???? :)

sixth: two months i will be hopefully done with all my hours, maybe not with all the holidays and time off the dentist takes. and of course christmas! woohoo! :) which of course mike comes home again for a good week and a half 2 weeks. best christmas present!

well lots of fun wonderful things happening and of course those are just the major things! i have a few trips planned to see jussy in the tri cities, see mason in lewiston, portland to see family, montana to see my favorite lineman boys, and of course all the great friends i have here in town! anyways will write again after my trip!! :-)

so long future!

i need to stop obsessing about our future. i'm driving mike and myself nuts. so... SO LONG FUTURE! good bye thoughts and dreams of our house- decorating and painting all the rooms. see ya later thoughts of babies. Lord knows i have too many of these. Yes these are things that we will pick up back in the Fall again but right now its not gonna happen. Buying our first house or getting pregnant will not make my husband come home any sooner. so for now i will not talk about it... or at least try my damnest!

i need to focus on the current things. like seeing mike in 9 days. our annual black friday/christmas kick off party. making our first christmas card together. new years. finishing school and my extern. starting my real job. bon fires. 4 wheeling trips. all these fun things are happening right now. not in a year not in 2 years. now. i can't keep wishing my years away or i will regret it. i start my extern in exactly 2 weeks. i feel like i'm going to throw up but its finally here. pretty soon i will just work monday thru thursday. i have no attachments. no adorable but needy babies. my husband is traveling to some pretty fun places that it would be hard to just randomly up and leave if we had kids. i'm refocusing things for now. don't think i wouldn't feel like the most blessed person on the earth if i was pregnant but for now i'm gonna be crazy carefree cayla again. for once in my life i have nothing to plan. no wedding. no school. nada.

its going to be rough for an over obsessive gal like me but it will be good for me. after all isn't all this what i used to plan and think about? i think so.

just crackin a smile.

okay not much for tryin to turn my wondering mind into a blog so this may be kinda spuratic but its alright....

i'm learing to cook/bake. i suck. i really do but want to be that mom who cooks every night for her charming husband and beautiful babies. i have 2 years to figure it out so in the mean time my wonderful mama has decided to help! one day a week i cook dinner. nothing fancy just a random dish i will be able to whip up in between running my kids to sports and classes, ya know the usual. than another the other day a week i bake something. i have dominated the banana cake recipe!! look what i'm bring to home room!! hah. i am starting to really like being in the kitchen attempting to do these dishes. besides i LOVE spending time with my mom. just blabbin on about life. its probably my favorite thing.

i'm also focusing back into yoga. i have always loved it but slacked majorly in keeping up. so fridays i'm taking a class again and after meeting up with my 2 wonderful friends robyn and brandy who are tackling this goal with me. these 2 girls always keep me level headed in my pathetic life and don't let me act like it for long. :)

i'm also in the hunt for a sewing machine. nothing fancy just simple. i want to learn to make simple things. my ultimate goal make a sweet quilt. mikes lineman quilt that i think i mentioned already

anyways thats my current brain. i'm off to bed. so excited to be crashing before 11!!! go me!!

my heart is in colorado.

life sucks right now. i know i'm being a baby slash super dramatic and not like me but screw it. i'm feeling sorry for myself. if i had the option i would lay in bed and not get up but unfortuantly school and work won't let me. i'm just about over this long distance thing. what am i doing? why did the one person i want for the rest of my self have to be impossible. oh i know its all worth it in the end blah blah but really. i'm not happy with anything which is just pathetic because i do have a great life and am blessed so how do i get outta this funk? i'm so tired of pretending like life is okay i'm okay. i'm not. i'm hitting my breaking point earlier than i should be.

i went yesterday and got us pre approved for a house... with my mom. NOT who i'm suppose to be filling out paper work with. i'm so tired of people asking when i got married and than asking how it is. people it hasn't fucking changed. we had 2 weeks together and he went right on back to colorado. i've seen him 6 days since yeehaw. some lady told me i better learn to cook to keep him around. lady, he's not here so who cares if i even grocery shop?! i want mike home. for good. i want to go pick out our new house and than go shop for a puppy since the baby deal is not happening for little longer. besides can't get pregnant without him around! i just want to feel normal again. i make plans than bail cause i can't put on this act anymore. i'm done. i've hit the wall.

7 weeks is nothing.

the h2o concert was amazing!! so much fun. i couldn't have had better dates... those boys crack me up! but now its back to reality, again. i have 7 weeks before i fly to denver to see mike for the weekend. the longest we've gone is about 10 weeks so we can do this. plus its almost easier to do the distance thing with the same last names, i know its weird but it helps me out a little.

with the thought of trying to keep busy to make the weeks fly by i have to do what i always do, set some goals!
1. work work work. may as well right? in about 2 and a half month i will be on my intern site not making anything and not able to work... phewy so better work my booty off now!
2. school. main focus right there. along with my 7 weeks to see mike i also only have 7 weeks until my actual school is done! this is incredible time thought for me. i feel like i have been working towards this forever so its really exciting for me! keep up my great grades!
3. get back into running. i love running. i'm one of the few who actually need to run. i just slacked off after the wedding so back to it!
4. not keep myself holed up in my house like i know i will try to do. so if youre reading this and i make up a lame excuse please drag me out!

its hard. but we can do it.

i feel like a den mom!

so i'm a retard. i booked mikes ticket for this weekend about 3 weeks ago and i screwed up. i'm so used to flying i put my name instead of his... a few choice words later mike managed to get the ticket to his name. you're not suppose to trade flights i guess? oh well its all good now he's on his way home as we speak! :) yay!

i am kinda liking this whole barely work thing. today i was able to get caught up and ahead with school work, cleaned house, cleaned out the house... man i have a lot of random books!... i finally ordered our thank you cards, got all wedding pictures in frames and hung out, make cookies enough for this weekend and for him to take home to the boys, i made sandwiches for everyone tomorrow for the big concert day, got enough beer to get us all in a good mood :) and now i'm killing time before i pick my hubby up! this weekend is gonna fly by... we're leaving at 10 tomorrow and probably wont get back until way late and than we turn around and mike leaves at 1 on sunday. its a quick trip but i get a kiss :)

well until next friends!

most productive day!

wow what a day! i finally got my name changed, officially not just facebook official :) it wasn't too bad just took all damn day to get my new license, social security, bank accounts all the mail in my name, blah, blah, blah! now i'm blogging a little while i'm baking cookies before a few friends come over for a movie night. one of the reasons i love fall so much, curling up with new and old movies and good friends.

my birthday was on sunday the big 21! yeeehaaaw! it certainly wasn't like the typical 21 run but thats okay because i'm so not the shot shot shot kinda girl. i was happy with my coors. mike wasn't planning on coming home but my mom said it was stupid for him not to. so he flew home and we were able to spend time together without dealing with wedding stuff. i love love love staying up all night just talking about our future. mike is ready for kids now. i am too i would love to have a baby now but i don't want to do it with him states away and never knowing when he can come home. we're thinking in about a year we'll start trying so by the time baby mcbride comes into the world he'll be home or at least close to being home. all in due time :) we just signed our lease again for 6 more months than its house shopping time! i love when our lives seem to fall into place. ha ha picture perfect mcbride household minus daddy for now!

i know probably no one has even noticed all the hurricane talk because it hasn't been bad and it is so far away but as a linewife i think its in my dna to watch the weather channel and hope it hits!! now i know this is terrible BUT this is what mike has been livin for... STORM TIME!! not only does it give him his crazy boy rush, and great experience but helloooo major paychecks. after talking to the older lineman storm checks are what pay for the toys and new cars all in cash. we just want to pay off my school loan and uhmmm a nice down payment for our house. its terrifying if i sit and think about the weeks i won't talk to mike wondering if he's okay or even alive. him up on that pole with the storm raging around. its scary but mike is smart i listen to him talk about his work and he knows his shit. besides i spent years watching my dad leave in the middle of the night to go on sniper hunts and call outs. that was all just prep for me to be a calm, patient line wife :) thanks dad!!

livin the life of a linemans wife...

alrighty so here we go with my first blog! woohoo!

i feel super cheesy right now but i'm gonna work with it... my name is Cayla... McBride :) i married my high school sweet heart a whole 2 weeks ago! he is currently living in Trinidad Colorado working on his steps. he is an apprentice powerlineman. for those who don't know what that is (i didn't before mike) he is the one who climbs the poles to give us all power! there are 7 steps in his apprentice he is currently about to become a 3rd step. he is working for mountain states and he travels whereever they send him...we bought a camp trailer last year that he gets to live in. his humble home. he has worked in southern idaho, wyoming, montana, utah, nebraska, kinda south dakota and now colorado. oh and we have a deal whatever major city he works in he has to buy me a t shirt, which is why i have so many random shirts! what he doesn't know is i'm planning on making him a quilt with all the shirts when he is ready to top out. i know aren't i cute ha! we have about a year and half to two years left of the whole traveling and than he gets to come home to good old cda and we can start our family :)

i get asked all the time why i don't go with him... well folks its because i have a life too. i love him more than anything but i am worthless to him if i don't have any pride or self worth myself. so i will support him from afar as he supports me in starting my career. i'm about 2 months away from starting my "apprenticeship" my intern for my dental assisiting program. i have been doing this since march and love it! i made the best decision to leave nic. the girls are the best and i love teeth. i will be done with my whole program right in time for christmas. hopefully the office i intern at will love me and will offer me a job. perfect world right?! i also have an amazing support system here. my family means the world to me. my friends have really stepped up this last summer to be there for me. they keep me occupied with our crazy adventures. if i moved to colorado to be closer he would probably end up being moved and i would be stuck without anyone. last choice i could travel in the trailer with him... hah those who know me know that if that happened i would go crazy. i have to work i have to have something to do. i would have that trailer spotless and throw half of mikes shit out so he would probably send me home anyways!

the distance thing is hard. i know alot of people do it so i'm not trying to say my situation is the hardest. but going months without seeing your husband is terrible for anyone. it sucks. thats all it boils down to. i refuse to be that sad cry me a river friend though. if i'm sad typically its the same thing. i miss mike. i'll have a mini breakdown by myself most the time if its bad i phone a friend, i'll pick myself up and surround myself with people who understand me and whats goin on and bam! outta the slump. besides the distance is the only thing thats rough. my life is pretty rad. i married the perfect guy. seriously we're awesome together. my friends rock. my family rock. school is my passion. work is finally fun again. so if distance is the only thing i can complain about slap me for being spoiled! besides i love traveling to random spots. denver is a pretty awesome place.

ooookay so thats the catch up on my life and now i get to blog about my wonderful days... hah stay tuned! i thought i would share a few of my favorite wedding pictures too. hopefully if it uploads. for those who weren't there our wedding was the bomb. the whole process (yes started from 15 months ago) was flawless. people who freak out over weddings can be slapped. cause it can be done people stressfree! i had a blast. the whole damn day was so much fun. if i could do it again i would. 15 min vow of love (we're not mushy) and 5 hours of triple keg party time. perfect.

anywho i look forward to blogging my life of a linemans wife :) please feel free to leave comments at least just saying someone is out there ready this so i don't feel like i total tard!